Him and I | Changlix

twenty six

Changbin's POV

"Okay perfect, thanks."

I had just finished discussing the plans with the audio and light crew.

I stood at the center of the basketball stadium.

I was feeling really nervous. And scared. And all the emotions in between.

I've never done anything like this before.

I never thought I'd spend so much money just to ask someone out on their birthday but here I am, broke but full of love.

I tried not to worry too much because I already know that he likes me too but...

still. I can't help but think of what could go wrong.

Thanks anxiety.

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Five Hours Until Showtime...

Jisung:

Are u alive

Me:

Barely. How's it going
with Felix?

Jisung:

I just told him
I was taking to a
basketball game but
he said he wanted to
wait to see if you were
going to invite him over

whAT should I say?

Crap.

Me:
Just... tell him
I'm taking him to
his favorite restaurant
tomorrow. IDK

I didn't even consider the fact that Felix could just not come at all and all my work would be for nothing.

Agghh, this is stressful.

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Three Hours Until Showtime...

What am I supposed to say again?

"Felix, you're my wo- no. Since today is your birthday, I thought I'd- no no no. I can't remember what I wanted to say!"

I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around to see Woojin.

"Why are you worrying so much?" he asked.

"What if he doesn't like the song? What if I trip? What if I freeze up and I can't-"

I was almost tearing up at this point. I just felt so overwhelmed by doubt.

I had my head in my hands.

"Changbin, what are you doing this for?"

I looked up at him.

"You're not trying to win an award, you're not trying to impress the whole world, you're trying to show Felix that you love him."

My breath started to slow down.

"This isn't about being perfect, this is about being in love. No matter what, this should be out of love, just let your heart lead you."

As cheesy as it sounded, his advice actually made me more calm, more confident.

Woojin was right.

I took a deep breath and started to rehearse for tonight once again.

I got this.