CLANDESTINE

cinq

5
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we love painfully,
secretly.

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they got asked a lot.

the company, once or twice in a month, would check over the artists to know whether they are having some sort of relationship or not. especially those who were caught in a scandal with someone inside the company or outside.

it's just amusing, how something as pure as love can be some sort of a taboo. to love and to be loved, it just happens. we don't control what we feel. yes, it might be unhealthy sometimes. again, what can we do? it happened, we can't really say that we don't want it. but, it doesn't mean that we need to accept it completely. there are people that had a horrible relationship and managed to get out of it and is happy. these people are the brave and courageous ones. there are also people that had a great relationship but loving too much hurts themselves and is depressed. these people are the tortured and bruised ones.

two types of people, good and bad. donghyuck, he's totally the second ones.

when asked by their manager if they're dating anyone, of course no one answers it. there's nothing to say though, to be seeing everyone would be a blessing for these boys that only had their job as the first priority.

but when the question, the unexpected, came out from the manager's mouth, they had their eyes widened.

"be honest with me, is any of you into boys?"

it came out so bluntly, yet held a darker meaning. the manager were glaring at them one by one and it took a lot of courage for donghyuck to not show how surprised he was by the question. fortunately, he was standing at the back, covered by the taller boys in front.

donghyuck felt his hand got pulled and in no time, mark was interlacing their fingers tightly. donghyuck glanced to him slightly, his breath shaking.

donghyuck was scared.

no one knows about them. while it was a good thing that it's hidden but it's painful, to be hidden by the eyes of people's watching, it's hurting him. he doesn't know about mark but for donghyuck, he was absolutely in pain. he wanted people to see how beautiful their relationship is, wanted to be appreciated by others but no, he can't.

"i hope no one is into that kind of thing. let me say it clearly, i would not want such thing to exist in here. not on my watch." the manager said, his eyes never leaving each one of them. "don't worry, hyung. we're nothing like that." mark said.

donghyuck lowered his head as the manager left and the other boys heaving a relief sighs at that. mark was about to pulled donghyuck, he knew that he just hurt donghyuck but someone need to say it. unfortunately, before he can do so, donghyuck already let go of his hand and walked away from the practice room, with a reason of feeling sick.

the others watched him go but can't help but to wonder what happened to him. donghyuck was just fine. what could possibly make him like that?

they wouldn't know. maybe, not ever. if this go on for forever, they may not know of it. but that is, if donghyuck and mark last that long. their relationship is the fragile one, a single, wrong touch may break it. loving a sensitive person like donghyuck wasn't a problem for mark, the problem lies when he is the one who can't handle donghyuck properly.

donghyuck is delicate, perfectly created with a frail heart that loves too hard and breaks too easily.

mark is solid, completed with a strong wall that shuts people out and protects one that he loved thoroughly.

opposite attracts, but all they had were cracks.