Now my mom is doing drugs and maybe my dad was right? Maybe my mom is ruining my life by doing drugs and I don’t know what I am going to do if this still is going on with her. She smokes weed and she sniffs crack and she deals drugs because she doesn’t have a job because she decided to do drugs and sell them. This really does affect my life because when my mom does drugs I can’t have any friends over. But my mom doesn’t realize that this is really killing me inside. But I don’t tell her anyway. My mom is now starting to hurt my little brother with his health because he is only 2. I know it has been awhile since I have spoken to my mom. I guess I should tell you why, because my mom that worthless butt monkey. Took and made my life a living hell. But at least I have a roof over my head. But it is the worst roof ever. Well the whole house is falling apart. I don’t live in a nice house anymore.
I live in a poor trailer and my dad doesn’t do anything about it. By the way my mom got a new boyfriend his name is Bryan. He abuses my mom and me. A lot of my mom not so much of me. He calls me a worthless spoiled snot nose stuck up little booger head. This to me does not describe me at all. That’s just in my opinion and most of my friend’s opinion. So this guy that my mom is dating now is not worth a lick. He is a piece of crap I hate him soooo much. Plus he hates me and my mom. She is in rehab. I'm so proud of her. She keeps trying her hardest to survive and turn her life around. This woman is so messed up that she doesn’t realize how much her drug abuse affects me. I try to make friends but all he wants to do is be a big but head about it. He tells me that I need to get a life. I am getting ready to start school again!
Kimberly and I are still best buds even though our parents aren’t together we still consider each other sister. It’s all most Kyle’s birthday he will be 3 and I am so excited! Poor little Kyle is growing up with no father and barley a mother (To be honest with you my dad has turned into a worthless piece of crap that I don't want to look at or consider him my father.) So maybe I am better with my mom than my dad but if you ask me I would say that to. People ask me all the time why don’t you see your dad anymore I try telling them the truth but I am too embarrassed. Just to tell you my dad is in jail and that makes me so mad and I don’t think my dad even cares. So then in that case I don’t care about him. He still tries to blame this all on me but when in all reality it’s his fault. He thinks he’s all big and bad and that he can do whatever he wants to do but I have news for him its really all his dumb headed fault. If he wants to parade around like an idiot then that’s fine by me I’m not going to try to stop him anymore.
I wish sometimes I could catch a break from this crazy world we all live in. But I don't think that will ever happen. I feel like nobody understands me because the only person that understands me is Kimberly. But then again not really because her parents are still friends as it stands for mine... I don't even know anymore. I'm tired of trying to fix everything on my own and then have nobody care that I’m trying to fix it. So if they aren't going to care then why should I. I'm done. From here on out I’m done trying to help people with their problems. Because I have problems of my own that I need to take care of first before I help anybody else through theirs. I'm so over this world and all these people thinking that their lives are the worst in the world. I can almost guarantee that mine is a lot worst. I'm done..........FOR NOW!!!!!
