Well today is my 15 birthday. Yeah I know it's crazy. I know I haven’t told you guys throughout this whole process but I figured leave the important detail out about me and only tell you the other important details about my life and how one minute it will be awesome and loving and the it can take a turn for the worst. But right now my life is pretty good and I’m having fun actually. Me and Chase are doing awesome tomorrow is homecoming. He is taking me to that. My mom is 4 months along and she's doing well with her pregnancy. Bryan is throwing her a surprise baby shower Kyle is 8 he is growing up so fast. I feel so old now I’m getting 2 new siblings and I just feel like I’m on cloud nine. Finally I’m at a point in my life that I will remember forever and I know (hope) it will stay this way. As for the other side of my family, meaning my dad and his FIANCE... Yea I know I’m not happy about this either. This bitch Julie has totally changed my father not in a good way she has gotten him into drugs and other things that my mom already went through. Why do I have to have both parents go through something that they shouldn't be going through? Drug's in my family is a very touchy subject because everyone has pretty much done them. My mom's mom died from heroine over dose, My dad's dad died from crack over dose, Both of Bryan's parents are using drug's every day and it's slowly killing them and I feel so bad for him cause everyday he has to watch his parent's kill themselves. Poor Bryan that man is going through so much. Damn now I kind of feel selfish because this whole time I have been talking about my problems and really me and him are kind of equal with thing's that suck in our life's.
Well today is the day. CHASE IS TAKING ME TO HOMECOMING!!!!!!! I have been waiting for this moment my whole life and now it's finally here. Chase is such a wonderful guy every day I just want to be with him and want to spend every moment of my life with him. Well I guess I will talk to you guys later I have to go but don't think I will forget to tell you how homecoming went I might even tell you why I’m there. SEE YA. Well I’m finally here. Here at what is going to be the greatest night of my life. Wait what O.M.G is he joking right now. OMG Chase is in a corner flirting with Kimberly. I can't believe that Chase would do this to me flirt with my best friend. I didn't think Chase would ever do this to me. Why me why now on what I thought was going to be the best night ever. Well if Chase want's to sit here and flirt with Kimberly then guess what it's on like Donkey Kong. Jason gets ready cause I’m coming for you. Now that I’m flirting with Jason. Chase want's to act like what the fuck. I told him if he was going to sit there in a corner and flirt with Kimberly and think when I got here I wouldn't notice he was wrong. He keep's trying to tell me that he was telling her not to screw her life up with Jason because they are really good together and once Jason gets her then he will drop her like a hot potato. But I don't believe him what I saw is what I saw and that's the end of it. For now on you won't ever hear of Chase and Katie together it will be Katie and Chase not together.
Today Chase tried to talk to me and I tried so hard to ignore him but couldn't I broke down in the middle of the hallway at school and he sat right there next to me why I screamed and yelled and hit him. Kimberly found us in the hallway and tried explaining herself and I wouldn't let her cause I didn't want to hear what she had to say. I told Chase and Kimberly that if every time I turn my back you guys are going to be lovers then I don't want to be a part of this love triangle. Go ahead and mess up my life more than what it is have fun even though I hope you still have the thought in the back of your mind that you where mine first and no matter what I will always love you but never forgive you. I was dreading third period because Chase and I were lab partners for a science project. So when I got there he had a box of chocolate waiting on me and it said " please forgive me I’m yours forever and always and I will always love you no matter what ". I thought it was nice and almost gave in but then I remembered what I had said and my mom always tells me when you’re mad at a man never give in stick to your guns and what you tell them otherwise they think they can control you. So I threw them and the trash and told him let's just get this done and over with so that way you can go back and be with just some girl that only looks that way to be some eye candy. She's only for looks never to touch. That’s what Kimberly always told me you can look but don't touch. He told me he didn’t want to touch it but I don't believe him or her. So we will see because I have noticed that he's making the effort to apologize. But come tomorrow he will see that I mean business.
Well today he was really shocked when I came into school with all the stuff he ever gave me. Rings, Necklaces, Posters etc. So now I hope he knows that it is going to be a while before he gets me back. When I got home my mom was there she went for a sonogram and the babies are doing fine but she was just so tired that she didn't go into work. Which do you blame her when your five months pregnant and you’re having twins you are more tired than a woman with just one child at five months. Chase keeps calling me. I told him to stop until I’m ready to talk on my term's which won't be anytime soon. But he seems to think so and that we are still together. Every day at lunch he walks up to me and kisses me on the cheek and I end up smacking him because he's doing this just to piss me off. He knows damn well that we aren't together and he still wants to act that way because whenever we would have a fight or an argument that's what he would do to get me to forgive him but not this time sorry Chase. I can't believe that he is doing this. He knows that it's not going to work but no matter what he can't get it through his head. Which after this I’m hoping that he will get that I don't play these games. We will see when I decide to talk to him. But the one thing that I’m afraid of is that he will take advice on how to get me back and then he's defiantly not going to get a girl.
