So today was the big day!!!!! My mom got married I’m so proud that she finally chose the right guy to marry I hope. Like I said Bryan he's ok. He's not my favorite person in the world but he seems like a better father to me and Kyle than George. So I was extremely horned my mom didn't just pick one of her bratty bitchy friends to be the maid of honor she chose me I cried when she got married. She started to cry because she was so happy and the fact that I pretty much approved of Bryan and plus with me crying just put the icing on the cake ha ha. I know down deep inside that Bryan is going to eventually grown on me more than what he already has. I was so excited I got to see Chase at the wedding. My mom and Bryan invited him and his family. I was so excited. We danced the night away together and I cried. He asked me what was wrong. I told him that I’m just happy for my mom and plus I missed him and wanted to be with him. He said "Awww. I know babe I missed you to and wanted to surprise you by being here and I’m happy for your mom to". Chase just completes me I hope we get married. But it's a little early to be talking about marriage.
Technically the wedding was our first date. But I don't consider it our first date. Today we went to the movies and he bought everything the tickets and food I was so happy. I thought to myself wow I really have a good person by me and I hope he sticks around even with my messed up family. We saw Breaking Dawn part 2. He held my hand during the movie. But even though Chase is a really good boyfriend he still has his flaws. Doesn't everybody? There are certain things that I’m afraid he will do again. Like he told me that in his past relationships he has abused the girls. But he told the reason was because when he was really young his mom abused him. So he was afraid that those girls would do the same thing to him. So now I’m afraid that he is going to do that to me. Trust me I know where he is coming from. I've been through it as well. Just like I already told you guys. But he said he will try his best not to hurt me and if he does he will just cut himself every time he does. I told him he doesn’t have to do that because it would kill me inside if he did. If he ever got too far or in too deep with cutting himself I would kill myself just to be with him.
So now that my mom and Bryan are officially together I have to get to know him better. Even though I don’t want to I have to. My mom expects me to because you know he's my stepdad now and her husband. I also have to find a way to tell my parents about Chase. Even though my mom invited him to the wedding she doesn't know that we are dating. But today Bryan took me shopping so that way we could bond. He knows about me and Chase so the bonding started about that. So the reason Bryan took me shopping is because one I need new clothes and two Chase is taking me to homecoming. I can't wait till that day I’m going to look fantastic!!!!! So I told Bryan not to tell he my mom and promised he wouldn't so I felt like I could trust him a lot more and I’m hoping that he doesn't tell my mom but we will see. So Bryan told me that he wants to have kids with my mom and I told him I’m fine with it but he might want to ask Kyle I mean he is 7 years old. So Kyle can talk of himself instead of me doing it. But I told him that I want a little sister and he told me that's something he can't control so we started joking about it. But I think I can get used to this because it seems to me that Bryan and I are getting along. It's so cool that I can relate to Bryan better than George. Which I find weird but cool. That's though because like I told you my dad is still in jail, but I don't think I ever told you why? We’ll let me tell you. He's in jail because he's the dumbest person and biggest screw up and I’m not proud to call him dad or daddy or father. He's in jail because went out here in this fucked up world and killed a man because his life is more of a mess than mine is.
But I’m hoping that my dad will get out soon because I have some chose word to tell him. So until he gets out I can't really say much but you know its ok cause as soon as he does get out he is getting an ear full from me and my mom. But that doesn't matter right now because I finally feel like I have a real family that isn't going to be so dysfunctional that I cry myself to sleep every night. Bryan takes everything good and bad and turns it into a joke and that's why I love him as a real dad. Whoa, I just called him my real dad wow that just shows how much of a real father figure he is to me and Kyle. The other day he took Kyle out and went to Clucky Cluckster's and Kyle came home and wouldn't shut up how much of an awesome time he had with Bryan. He actually went and hugged Bryan and said I love you daddy and my mom started to explain that Bryan isn't his real dad because she thought that Bryan might get offended and he was the one that stopped her from saying anything. Bryan was totally fine with it wow he actually might be a better dad than George. Thanks for your support is something I want to tell him but I’m still not sure like 100% sure not yet until we do more bonding (shopping).
