I guess depression is my obsession,
I mean,
No matter my tries,
It's just built up lies,
I'm just tired,
Can't take much more,
I won't smile,
I'm dying inside,
Losing my pride,
I'm not worthy,
I'm a mess,
Come and challenge me,
It's not a hard test,
Let's let it go,
But don't say no,
My silent pain,
I guess it's good,
My emotions are everywhere,
So why do you care,
I'm the runt of everything,
I should be nothing,
And you're trying to make me something,
I guess it's attention,
Maybe affection?
But it's all the same,
I just feel worse,
It's like a meant-to-be curse,
I can't even describe,
The mood I'm in,
But once I think it's alright,
The unworthy feeling will always win,
Maybe I have a way out,
Maybe some light,
Out if this trap,
Out of this fright,
I'm curious of it,
How it would feel like,
But I can't find the way out,
But you might,
And still I'm confused,
I'm all over the place,
I'm such a lousy waste,
With a fake elated face,
I'm just a disgrace,
And I don't know,
If this feeling will disappear,
Or will it stay,
Continuing to burn and sear,
While I watch,
With helpless fear,
But I try to hide it,
Not wanting anyone to know,
Of course I'm the best,
At keeping up the show,
Letting you think,
Letting you assume,
That I'm just fine,
But you always knew,
You're hard to outsmart,
Or maybe I think that,
You just think you like me,
While I continue to feel like a rat,
And only the future will tell,
I guess it'll lead,
Showing us what is really our want,
And our need,
I wonder what's yours,
I don't know what's mine,
Or maybe I'm staring at it,
Something I suppose I pine,
And this is mainly about,
Just how I feel,
So comment if you please,
Or vote if you will....................
