Smile,
You pathetic you,
Yes, I'm vile,
What are you gonna do?
Pick up the pain,
Or so you claim,
Get the f*ck up,
Stop being so lame,
I'm putting stress on you,
I'm your guilty self,
I'm making you break,
Squish and melt,
So stop being stupid,
Think for once,
What made you better,
There are tons,
So come here ugly,
I'll show you real agony,
You think your problems are real bad?
Psh, how crappy,
You want it to get better,
Then why do you doubt,
Why stay silent,
When you can shout,
You need help now,
But you won't take any,
People try to,
I guess too many,
But you push them away,
Blocking out help,
Instead your knives and pins are your salivation,
Giving you deep wounds and read welts,
Stop being foolish,
Stop being selfish,
Someone will care for you,
But I'll make no promise,
Just take a hand,
Take a risk,
Instead of a knife,
To your wrist,
And still you deny,
Like no one is there,
The only reason why,
Is because you won't let anyone care,
You won't vent,
You won't cry to someone,
Being consumed inside,
It's too late,
You've practically died,
But there is still hope,
If you'll just let yourself see,
That people come and go,
Do as they please,
You'll find what you're looking for though,
If you open your eyes,
Instead of sitting there in the dark,
Being emotionally blind,
So I'll push you hard,
I'll make you feel hurt,
Until you get up,
And open your heart,
I'm ruthless,
I'm cruel,
I'll keep up this game,
Till you stop being a fool,
This is me,
I'm battling with myself,
That's him,
My guilt and shame,
It's difficult to accept,
And endure these emotions,
But he'll keep hurting me,
If I don't let go,
It goes to show,
Maybe I am a fool,
I'm sitting here pathetically,
Being used like a tool,
Thrown away,
Because I won't let someone close,
So they finally give and leave,
No one will ever choose me,
If I keep thinking like this,
He'll come back ten times worse,
Showing me real pain,
And putting more pressure,
I'm so weak now,
It's like everything someone says hurts,
I guess it's a way to say,
It's time for me to go..............
