Believer ~Jean x Reader AU~

Chapter 21: Deserve Better

I just stared at him, those fierce golden orbs locked on me. Our gazes were intertwined together, the both of us too entranced to glimpse away. I felt so hypnotized by that dazzling stare. There was something in it that made my breath lodge in my throat like a stone. Something I couldn't quite understand.

"I don't know," he repeated, swallowing. "Why...why am I here? This shouldn't matter."

I could hear the way his voice wavered with confusion. His eyes were still locked on me, that sharp stare observing me. To be honest, everything about the atmosphere made me feel so...so...I don't know. I didn't know how to put it into words.

"Jean," I said, feeling my lips tremble. "A-are you okay? Do you need me to call someone or -"

"No," he interrupted quickly.

His voice sounded so urgent that it caused me to jump a tad. I hadn't expected him to react in the way he had. I mean, why would I? I didn't think even he thought he'd react that way. It was strange.

"A-are you s-sure?" I stammered, biting my lips. I was fidgeting with my fingers and trembling, but I wasn't scared.

"I'm...I'm fine," he breathed.

"R-really?" I stuttered, taking a step near him. "Because you look pretty str-"

What happened next, I couldn't process.

He rushed over to me, his body forcing me to step back until my back gently hit the wall behind me. His eyes stared into mine, those flames in them burning like raging fires that reached for the sky. His lips were slightly gaping, his chest rising and falling heavily as if he was struggling to breathe. Of course, that made my body react similarly. I too was taking hefty breaths that were rough and harsh, my own lips open.

He was standing so close to me, his body heat radiating against me like a furnace, the warmth nearly searing my flesh. He was pinning me with his tall frame, his arms trapping me between them as his face hovered close to mine. Our eyes remained trained on each other, almost as if we were trying to stare at the other's soul.

It was all so surreal to me. He was so close that I could feel his hot breath brushing against my cheek, but I didn't care. Chills overwhelmed my body, goosebumps raising my skin. My heart was vigorously beating my ribs as if trying to escape through them as my pulse echoed through my ears. A fiery tint dusted over my cheeks, burning my ears as well. I didn't know what was going on, but, oddly enough, I didn't care.

With every second we spent in that stance, the more I wanted to touch him. No...that was an understatement. I didn't just want to touch him. I wanted to pull him as close as humanly possible to me...tangling my fingers in his chestnut locks...feeling his body against mine...and inhale his every exhale. And just by the look of him, I couldn't help but wonder if he wanted the same.

"J-Jean," I swallowed, my chest rising and falling as if I was fighting for air. "Jean...what...what are you doing?"

His fierce stare didn't change as he breathed, "You can do so much better than him." He lowered his face to my ear. "A girl like you deserves so much more than he can ever give you. Why can't you see that?"

Lips trembling, I weakly questioned, "Then who? Who can give me that?" I lowered my tone. "Is it you? Can you give me that?"

I could feel his body go tense in response to my words, but he didn't pull away. If anything, he came closer. His lips hovered close to my ear, his breath nearly steaming against my skin. I felt weak, my knees wobbling beneath the weight of my body, but I didn't care. I just stood there and basked in what was happening.

"I'm not sure if anyone can give you what you deserve, but I could give you more than he ever could," he answered in a low tone, his hands drifting closer to my waist. "I couldn't promise you rubies and diamonds, but I could definitely give you what he can't."

I squeezed my eyes shut and tilted my head back. "And what's that? What could you give me? What could a girl like me possibly deserve?"

"A girl like you," he snarled seductively, his hands finally grasping my hips. "A girl like you deserves a man. You might think he's one, but I know I could do better. I could show you what a real one does."

Chills ran the length of my spine. I knew that what I was doing was wrong. I was aware of that and I knew that I was betraying Kellen's trust, but at that moment, the power Jean had over overruled any common sense I had. I found myself weak at his touch, his words already leaving me quivering. And, as much as I didn't want to admit it, everything he was doing made the space between my legs tingle.

"Show me," I gasped. "Show me...teach me...I want you closer."

I could feel him bringing his lips close to mine, but he froze. He stopped, our lips so close, yet so far away when he sighed, "I'm sorry, but I can't. I...I should go." He pulled away, leading me to open my eyes. "I'll...I'll see you around, Y/N. Sorry again."

At that, he opens my door and hurried out of it, all the while I could see how his features flushed scarlet. Honestly, my face was the same. My features burned with a mixture of embarrassment and disappointment. I was so ashamed of myself. What the hell, dumbass? You have a boyfriend. I snapped at myself. And he has a girlfriend. Ugh! I'm such a fucking idiot!

I wanted to beat myself for my stupidity. I ran my fingers through my loose locks and contemplated what to do. Despite my frustration with myself, I still couldn't shake the vibrations ringing between my legs. I bit my bottom lip.

It felt wrong, but I texted Kellen and told him to come over. He was there within a few minutes, confusion sprawled across his features. But, I didn't explain. I pulled him into my room and closed the door behind him, slamming my lips to his. He didn't fight it. He kissed me back, his tongue asking for permission to enter my mouth. I granted it and things went from there.

We had sex that evening...but it was Jean's face I saw.

**Ello my wonderful lovelies! So...this chapter, eh? Yeah...I know. But, hey, alone time with Jean followed by sexy time with Kellen. Yeah, that's bad, I know lol. Still, hope y'all liked it! Thank you so flippin' much for everything! Y'all are the bestest! Wuv yous!! <3**

-Noel Ross

P.S. I love Shawn Mendes "Treat You Better". The man is amazing and his voice is heaven. Plus, this song kinda fits. Kinda.