Charles wasn't sure if he'd become so good at hiding his emotions that his face was completely void of any when she dropped the bombshell or wether she was so excited she had completely missed his heart break into millions of tiny pieces at the thought of her going. After all he'd been the one to who was adamant she should make her own choice in regards to her career. And now she'd made it and it hurt.
"So I'll organise everything with your mum. We can lock the place up and you can go back there temporarily"
He nodded in agreement to whatever it was she was saying desperately trying to keep the panic at bay.
There wouldn't even be any time to get his head around it because she was leaving in 3 days. 3 bloody days.
He felt foolish for thinking he could watch her go. It brought him back to the times when she had begged him not to leave and he did it anyway. He deserved this. Karma was well and truly letting him have it for all of his fuck ups.
Charles' parents had taken the news a lot worse than Charles had appeared too.
"This is absurd Molly. Leaving now when he needs you the most? I just can't believe it. All the mistake of the past are happening all over again. He's pushing you away and you're putting the army first"
Beth sat with her head in her hands "He needs you Molly. He's no where near ready for this. Physically, mentally or emotionally" she pleaded.
"It ain't like it was last time. It's only a really short mission. We've got to extract some kids and then I'll be home again. That's me done in the army, this is my final job"
Beth shook her head "If you believe that Molly then you'll believe anything"
If Molly was honest she hadn't expected it to go down well, But this was something else. Charles was barely speaking to her. Or at all actually. He was jealous, something that used to turn her on. It was like proof of his feelings for her but she didn't need that kind of validation of his feelings anymore. Now it just stung to see him hurting.
"I'm not doing this because I want to be away from you. I just really need to help them kids. They are just kids Charles"
He kissed every inch of the back of her hand before pulling her to stand between his legs.
"I know. And I would never stand in your way"
She kissed the top of his head, tilting his chin so she could look into his eyes.
"You're sad" she could feel tears burning in the back of her eyes "I never want to make you sad"
She wrapped her tiny body around his. Unsure why she was going ahead with this.
"I'll be fine. You just concentrate on being brilliant and come back to me"
He laced his fingers between hers. An urgency rising inside him to be as close as possible. His large hand pulled her face towards his, she loved how his hand enveloped her whole face. They kissed with love and passion and sheer need for the closeness that it brought them.
He still felt self conscious as she helped him pull off his trousers but she always found a way to push that from his mind.
"Still the most perfectly handsome man I've ever seen" she panted between kisses.
He'd never held her so tightly, reinforcing her sadness at leaving him "You'll be alright won't you?"
