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Chapter XV

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''Okay, I'd lashed out at Claire but could you really blame me?

This whole thing was a mess and mess makes unorganized and unorganized and Caroline Forbes don't get along! Claire and Caroline never did either... she was Bonnie's cousin and then some sort of friend to me but we'd bicker all the time...

ha, I remember during the Ms Mystic Falls pageant while I was so crept out and excited I couldn't put on my dress on my own because I'd suddenly forgotten how to do the straps in the back or even how to button up the single button in the front.

Claire had come into the room and said she was bored with Elena and her suitors, well apparently suitor since Stefan was nowhere to be found and she'd joked for half an hour about all the stupid looking girls that were competing against me.

I hadn't found it funny then but now I know she was trying to take my mind off it... to reassure me in her own kind of way. She sucked at comforting people but sometimes she could show... compassion.

Two days ago though we couldn't even see one another and now she's my best friend. Well, this is not entirely sarcastic but not sincere either though. Claire's always been closed off anyway. She was never with Elena and I and the rare times she spent time with someone she didn't seem to hate were with Bonnie.

Who knew it'd only take less than a two days for her and I to befriend each other? Hell I didn't even know if she considered me a friend but I definitely did her.
She was the only one I had in here.

While this whole thing seemed messed up I continued walking through the yard until I reached the front door to head black inside, avoiding purposely the living room.

Yes, because I'd gone out a few minutes and thought this through once again.
I'd cried more, this time without Claire to comfort me -which would have been awkward knowing her- and observed the landscape, doing anything to avoid to go back inside that house. After more whining though, I decided it was enough.

I was done crying, Caroline Forbes is strong, independent and confident.
I wasn't miss Mystic Falls for nothing!
Yeah, I had to get back on the tracks.
I had to control myself. Claire wasn't whining her... well she'd been a little crept out and sick earlier when we'd gone out but she's been pretty chill despite that, at least I think so.

Yeah, another thing about that girl, it was impossible to figure out what was going on in her head. She's always been like that -part of the reason Elena and I used to not like her as much as we did Bonnie- she hid.

She hid behind a facade, a pretty strong ass one at that.

She was always sarcastic and annoying because she didn't want people to get through her, she didn't want to care about them.

Sheila used to say she was afraid of abandonment but I always thought there was way more to that. I think she's afraid of abandon and that she doesn't want to hurt people that come near her.

She felt like a flame, back home, like she would burn people if they got too close.

So she closed herself, and well, never reopened.

I remember the first time we heard about Bonnie having magic.
Well the first time I heard of it.
Oh yeah of course I was the only one out of their little secrets.
Because Claire, Bonnie and Elena already knew about the supernatural and didn't judge it wise to tell me, even though I'd been fed on by Damon and compelled and almost killed and... well scratch that, they didn't tell me right away and even though they should have, it's all past now, wasn't it?

Anyhow... when Bonnie found out she had magic and made me a daylight ring and did all sorts of spells, we'd tried to figure out if Claire could do the same. Apparently, since she was also a Bennett she could, but after a few attempts she couldn't do as little as to light up a candle.
No matter how much she tried or concentrated -closing her eyes and ignoring Damon throwing things at her- she never succeeded.

Before Bonnie's grandma died though, and occasionally before we knew about all that stuff, she'd said that Claire had fear of abandonment and that some things would always remain 'stuck' for her.
At that time we'd just thought she was talking about why Claire wouldn't be friends with Elena and I, but after the whole Katherine stuff we'd figured Sheila actually meant that Claire's powers could never be used because of something in her brain, a trauma or fear possibly linked to her mother's abandon.

Okay let's explain it more simply, you know how some people refuse to do things they're afraid of like fishing or laser game, well it's the same case for Claire, she's more likely not afraid of her magic but... she seems to have some trouble with it.
Hell I think I would have had to because unlike Bonnie she didn't know anyone close to her side of the family.

Sheila was Bonnie's direct grandmother but Claire's father was just part of the Bennett family... a very distant part of it.

The fact of Claire not using her powers didn't come inconsequently though. Yes, therefore her brain blocked her powers, her body demanded for her to express them, it craved them.

However, she didn't use them, so I didn't get that part very well but apparently the energy built up again and again and packed together and... well let's just say that now she most likely isn't in control of the massive dose of energy that is just craving to come out of her, and Sheila said it could be very dangerous not only to Claire, but to people close to her as well, and that's all I know.''

After my rant I couldn't stop staring into the brown pupils that dilated before me, his face was so close to mine... so close.
But the proximity didn't bother me... I wasn't... liking it either but I... didn't mind it... didn't think anything of it.

''Thank you, Caroline. You may forget we've discussed anything or that I've even asked, now.''  He said and blinked so his pupils were no longer dilated.

I didn't know why I felt the urge to blink as well but I did, more than a few times as if my eyes had run out of liquid in them.

I looked up after blinking and realized I was in the Hall... how... how did I get here I was...
''I was just... walking through the door, how the hell am I already...'' I didn't get a chance to finish my sentence though as Kol suddenly crashed his lips on mine, forcing our lips to move in sync and share a kiss.

Hello!

Two updates in a week wow!

I'd also like to say that I took a good resolution (before the new year lol) I'm gonna stick to that story and only update this one as much as I can, writing as many parts as I can at least until I think six or seven weeks which means more parts and more updates every week!

I'm taking a lil break in all my books to do this and then once the seven weeks date is crossed I'll choose another one of my books to update as much as I can and so on until I get back to this book.

This way there will be more parts in less time because I just recently had plenty of ideas for this book, there may even be a book two!

Love, Mya! ❤️