I get back home after Pryce drops me off. I walk into the house and it's dead silent. I'm guessing Stokeley and Jahseh are sleeping. I put Jahseh's food in the fridge before I go upstairs into the guest bedroom. I lay on the bed and then on my phone. I scroll through my Instagram for a bit.
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I wonder if he's okay.
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I roll off the bed and tip toe to Stokeley's room. I quietly open the door and then close it behind me. It's dark in his room but the light from his TV shows me that he's laying on his bed.
I sit next to him, "What're you watching?" He picks up his controller and reads out the title of the movie to me. I nod and cross my legs. "You gonna stay like that the whole time?" He snickers.
I roll my eyes and lay down. I find a comfortable position and rest my head on the headboard. Stokeley slouches and slowly moves his leg next to mine. I slouch too so my head is next to his shoulder.
Stokeley wraps his arm around me and I hold my breath. I can feel my heart beating faster. I don't want him to know I feel nervous. I never know what's going to happen with him.
"Can we just chill like before?" He rubs my shoulder. What does he mean like before? Like before we dated? "Before we went on dates and cuddled, and kissed."
"Yeah..." He pauses, "What's wrong with that?" I shake my head, "We can't do that anymore."
"C'mon..." He tries to pull me closer but I move away. Stokeley grabs my hand and I stop with one foot on the floor, "Wait... Don't go. I don't wanna be alone right now..."
I lay back down next to him and I naturally wrap my arm around his waist. His arm rests on my shoulder and his breathing gets heavy. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah," He sighs, "I just feel nervous." If this boy is horny again... "Why?" He slightly shrugs, "I don't know... Probably because I'm with you."
"Can I ask you something?" I ask. He nods and I can hear his heart beat faster. "Do you still like me?" He stays silent. "I need to know or this needs to stop."
He remains silent for a moment and so do I. "Um..." he hesitates, "I really don't know." I shake my head. "Like I'm fine with us just being friends but I lowkey be gettin' jealous when I see other mans gettin' your attention." He continues.
"Other mans as in Pryce?" I question. He nods, "Do you like him?" I shrug, "I don't know, I don't really know him."
"You didn't really know me but you still liked me." He replies. I sit up and look at him, "That was different." He moves his arm away from me. "How's it different?"
"I liked you when I didn't know you because I had already created who you were in my head." I explain, "But clearly you weren't what I imagined."
"So I wasn't what you expected and that's why you didn't want to be with me anymore?" I run a hand down my face. He's really stressing me out. "No. I never said I didn't want to be with you anymore. I literally said I wanted to be closer with you before dating you and you took it as me not liking you anymore?"
He nods and looks away from me. "Look, do you wanna be with me or not?" I'm getting frustrated with him. He just stares at the TV. "I don't know."
"Well when you find out, lemme know." I get up from the bed and this time he doesn't stop me. I leave his room and walk to the guest bedroom. I lay on the bed and pull the covers over my face.
I take a deep sigh and then I hear another person's breathing along with mine. I remove the covers from my face and I see Stokeley standing next to the bed. "I don't want to hurt you anymore." My heart starts to race after he scares me but I relax immediately after he speaks. "You're not hurting me."
He sits on the side of the bed, "Nah, I know I haven't been treating you right and I should be honest with you." I sit up and cross my arms along my chest. "Go ahead."
"To be honest, I just wanted to fuck you. I didn't want anything else from you but after talking to you, I thought you were cool. But I still didn't want a relationship from you." He confesses.
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Gonna take a break from updating and shit. If you seen my message then you know my ig got hacked and a really private conversation got exposed. So basicallyIdon't really wanna fw any social media rn.
