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I giggle and look at Stokeley, sitting in his chair in his studio. He looks up at me and chuckles. "Why you sittin' so far away?" I snicker and roll my eyes, "Because you're trynna be nasty."
Stokeley chuckles and throws his head back, "Nah, I just wanna be with you."
"I am with you." I smile and watch him lick his lips. I watch him get up from his chair and place his hands on the back of the sofa, on both sides of me. I look up and he roughly places his lips onto mine. We move our lips together for a few moments and then I pull away. "What?" He has a puzzled look on his face.
"Nothing... I just feel weird." I fold my arms and rub my hands on each side of my arms. He sits next to me and wraps his arm around me. "It's just weird being with you now after not being around you so much."
"Is it 'cause we're together now?" He isn't understanding how I feel. "Are you surprised we're dating?"
I shake my head, "No... I think we might've rushed this a bit. I feel like I still don't know you."
"Well... If we were really close and I knew you for a while, I wouldn't date you." His words felt emotionless. It was like he doesn't care about how I'm going to feel. "What do you mean?" I shift away from him.
"I don't date girls that I'm friends with." He tries not to smile, "I've actually never dated a girl I've known for a long time." He shrugs and shifts closer to me. "But it doesn't matter like we're already together."
I shift away from him again and give him a glare. He meets my gaze, "What?"
"Stokeley, I want to get to know you more." He looks at me clueless, like he's waiting to see the issue. "As a friend." I conclude.
"So you want to break up?" He asks. Oh no. A lump forms in my throat. "I don't know."
"What do you want from me?" His voice is stern and I keep my eyes off of him. "I don't know." It's as simple and as complicated as that. "Tell me what you want from me." I continue to shake my head and place my head in my hands. "I don't know. There's not a specific thing I want from you."
"No, what relationship do you want with me?" He thinks I don't understand his question. "What do you want us to be?"
I continue to shake my head and I fight back my tears. I swallow the lump in my throat and try to keep my voice from shaking. "I told you I don't know. I like being just your friend right now."
His face is relaxed and then he clenches his jaw. "Fine. Then we're done."
I can see he's bothered by what I said. So I don't say a word. I don't want to bother him more than I already have. I leave his studio and begin to cry. I go upstairs and I see Jahseh in the kitchen with nothing but sweatpants on. I wipe away my tears and try to hold myself together.
"Heeeey! Gen!" He smiles at me and continues to pour himself a glass of orange juice. "What's going on?" I show him a tight smile, "Um, just go-" my voice cracks. Shit. I clear my throat, "going to bed."
He furrows his brows at me, "Are you okay?" I nod, not realizing a couple tears had escaped from my eyes. Jahseh pulls me into a hug. His bare skin against me was warm and he smells like cologne. My tears fall onto his shoulder and wipe them away with my hand. "It's okay." He whispers.
I pull away from the hug and wipe my tears onto my sleeve. "Did he hurt you?" I nod and sniffle, making sure my nose isn't running. "Did he break up with you?"
"No, I broke up with him." I didn't think I'd ever say those words about this relationship. "I know it sounds stupid but I feel like I still don't know him and I want to know him a lot better before being in a relationship with him." I shrug. "I don't think that's stupid." He flashes me a warm smile.
I try to smile back but it hurts too much. "Then he said that we can't be together if we decide to be friends first. So he said we're done." I feel the same lump form in my throat again.
"Just give him time, he'll come back to you. I don't think he's gonna just throw your friendship away. He just needs space." He rubs his hands on my shoulders, "You can sleep in my bed tonight."
"Where will you sleep?" I ask. "The couch."
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So I got my first day of classes today and it starts at 9:30 so I should probably go to sleep. But Iwanted to update this first before Iget busy with class work. This is where the storyis about to get serious and you're about to get in your feelings and be mad so lmao. Enjoy.
