Today I Met The Girl I'm Going To Marry | jensoo

Chapter 41

I'm bringing Sexy Jisoo back.

Hopefully I'll be so hot Jennie won't know how to act..

Take it to the chorus.

Right, so, I made my decision after much debate with myself and with Rosé.

She ended up spending the whole day with me, leaving only to pick up her clothes for the evening and then returning so we could get ready together.

She's proved to be such a great distraction, never letting me get too lost in my own thoughts, as I've been known to do.

I've missed spending time with Rosé like this and I know she has as well.

My goal going forward is to make sure my Jennie-obsessed self doesn't forget about Rosé like I've been doing.

She doesn't deserve that at all.

"I'll just be a few more minutes," Rosé yells from the bathroom.

"No problem, take your time," I tell her as I gaze at myself in the mirror.

Rosé picked the outfit I'm wearing and she helped me with my hair and make-up.

I think she's done a decent job of making me look good.

I hope it's enough.

Enough to get Jennie's attention and keep it for the night.

I thought long and hard about purposely making Jennie jealous but I just don't have it in me to manipulate her like that.

I experienced jealousy last night like I've never experienced before and let me tell you it's a horrible feeling.

It made my stomach churn and I really don't have the desire for Jennie to feel that way too. I don't want to make Jennie feel anything but amazing and going the jealousy route would have been a mistake.

What I'm going to do instead is show Jennie exactly what I have to offer.

I've already done that with my heart, maybe it's time to reach another part of her.

The part of her that she's completely reached with me.

In spades!

I'm wearing my Dr. Marten boots, a mini skirt and a top that covers my front but leaves most of my back exposed. Every piece of clothing I have on is black.

Both my visible items of clothing and the ones that are hidden.

I had a different top chosen at one point but it exposed my stomach and that exposed the heart that is still there.

It's almost faded completely but it's still visible.

The heart that Jennie branded me with.

Wow, it feels like that happened a lifetime ago.

When I explained the story to Rosé she became even more convinced about Jennie's feelings for me.

I'm still not sure though.

How can I be?

How can I be sure when Jennie's with Hanbin?

How can I be sure when so much about Jennie remains a mystery?

How can I be sure when the second I feel like we've taken steps forward in our relationship, we end up taking a hundred steps in the other direction?

I don't think I'm being unreasonable having the doubts that I do.

And yet, despite those doubts, I still believe in Jennie and me.

In what the future holds for us.