Unknown Worlds - Dreams Of A Girl

Souls

"And what exactly is your plan, if I may ask?" I glanced at him warily. "You've been very vague."

"Come on, you can't tell me you fear being the bait. That would be illogical."

I just stared at him.

"Okay, okay...I guess emotions override the logic with you humans..." He sighed.

"Can you PLEASE stop insulting me and my entire race?" I was growing more livid by the minute.

"Jeez..." he looked at me with a frown on his face. "Calm down, will you?"

"How can you expect me to calm down, if you do Not tell me in any shitty way, what is going on? You can't expect me to simply sit in here following your every whim, while you devise your 'clever' plan that will most likely get us all killed! You know, those tiny little humans you like to insult have something called self-preservation." I snapped at him.

He put his hands up while he looked taken aback. "Woah, just calm down. I will have you know that my plans always work out!" He relaxed his posture and then grumbled under his breath "for better or worse."

"I did hear that." I returned at him.

"Well then you can hear this too. It is a little bit late to start with the whole self-preservation thing. Need I remind you? You are dying and you don't want to do anything against that. Can you explain that?" He glared at me.

I let the silence grow until I spoke. But when I spoke I kept my voice calm while I seethed on the inside.

"You are totally aware of the fact that I know that I will die. And you don't have any fucking right to come and question me about why I don't want to find a cure. If you are as clever as you deign yourself then you know why. So shut the fuck up!" My voice rose towards the very end, so I ended up shouting at him. I stood up with the intention of storming out of the room. I did not want to hear any of his usual comments.

So when he opened his mouth, I held up my hand and spat at him. "Don't you dare talk to me!" Then I went to stomp out of the library as had become my custom.

What halted me in mid step and only served to fuel my fury further was his calm voice. "Please, enlighten me then." He wasn't even riled up my temper. Probably he found it amusing, but for me it sure as hell wasn't.

I whirled around, my face contorted in fury.

"You know perfectly well!"

He simply shrugged.

"No, I don't."

"Are you that goddam stupid that you don't know when somebody wants to die? Are you really that ignorant to your own surroundings? I. WANT. TO. DIE! Do you understand it now? And if I hadn't been hit with that stupid plasma gun I would have ended up dead another way. I simply would have sprung from a fucking bridge. So stop sitting there so calmly. Before I die – one way or the other – I want to save my friends. But don't speak to me until I have calmed down, cos' you sure as hell don't want to be the center of my fucking wrath!"

I turned around and stomped through the halls. My eyes were brimming with tears. Internally I cursed myself. Each time I got so riled up I ended up close to tears and crying was the last thing I needed. I at least hoped he had enough sense or was hurt enough to leave me alone the next hour. I did not even feel sorry. If it was what would keep him away from him I would resort to that way each time.

I began to walk even faster until I ended up running. Tears run down my face. I simply wanted to find a lonely corner to hide in and to bawl my eyes out at my stupidity.