Unknown Worlds - Dreams Of A Girl

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His gaze visibly softened as it fell on to me. He smiled sadly.

"It's not that a big deal, Elena...It might seem to you, but it wasn't completely my decision, you know?"

"Just shut up, you big oaf!" I waved my right hand dismissively at him. If he could not understand what this meant to me...Simply being here...standing near the soul of Tardis...it felt so soothing, I did not want to go because of fear of losing this feeling. I couldn't help it...a bubbly laugh escaped my lips. As golden sparks fell from the ceiling to the ground like leaves from the sky to the earth in winter, I stretched out my arms and began to twirl around while laughing. It was cliché...but in this moment I felt so happy; it was a happiness that I hadn't been able to feel for months, it was a happiness I usually could only get through meeting my friends...if I hadn't had to cancel it to go to a seminar I wasn't that fond of.

My so-called parents did not know what those meetings did to me; they could not perceive how much I needed and wanted them and how high my anticipation was. It felt so cruel...my friends and me had agreed for a meeting more than a whole month in advance so I could attend, still I had to cancel it a week before...

The memories crossed my thoughts, but still, my mood didn't change...those thoughts that usually could destroy my seldom good moods, those thoughts that could drive me to the edge; that could cause break-downs, they didn't seem to influence me one bit. For this moment I was carefree, completely and utterly carefree. It was a feeling I savored, even though it might sound egoistic. It was as if I was high on drugs, which in a way I was...the soul of the Tardis could do that to lesser beings like me.

Arms encircled my waist and stopped my twirling movements. I came to an abrupt stop and crashed into the body of the Doctor.

"I should not have brought you here..." he murmured silently under his breath, sounding sad.

I was dazed; he had snapped me out of my ecstatic-like trance; one part wanted to thank him for that, while the other one cursed him.

"Big, stupid oaf!" I slurred as I fell into his arms.

"Please, what?" he sounded amused as he looked back down at me.

"You know pretty well...!" If possibly my slurring even worsened. The whole room seemed to be spinning. "Big, stupid oaf...that's what you are!" "Well thanks, my dear...what does that make you then?" "Not fair!" I snipped, while slipping into a deep slumber. The last I heard was his amused laugh.

***

I awoke with a terrible pain pounding behind my eyes. With an exasperated groan I hosted myself up, ignoring the fact that I seemed to have passed out – again.

"Morning, oaf girl!" An overly cheery voice greeted me and served to worsen the headache.

"Stop it", I groaned. "Your voice gives me headaches."

He chuckled. When I opened my eyes I found him leaning on the console with a devilish smirk on his face.

"Tsk...someone's bitchy today..."

I shot him a glare. As much as I wanted to wipe the smirk from his face, I found I could not. Rapid movements, such as trying to stand up, let the pain explode throughout my head and let my sight turn blurry with black spots.

"Careful there, lass" the Doctor warned, while grabbing my arm to keep me from falling to the ground.

His face turned thoughtful.

"Do you, by any chance, feel as if you had too much to drink?"

"Where should I know that?" I snipped back at him, irritated at him for asking such a stupid question, when it was clear that I could not have had drunk something.