The Cold Season (part 2)

Chapter 1: I'm Getting Sick Again

My stomach is so twisted, I can't sit up straight. I leave my arms wrapped around me, I feel like my intestines will fall out if I quit holding them in
There's a lump in my throat that I can't seem to swallow and I can't make eye contact because I can't face reality
I'm rolling my eyes to keep the tears from falling and to keep anyone from coming too close to me
I know I have a voice but if I start talking I'll start crying and if I start crying I'll never stop