The Cold Season (part 2)

Chapter 38: Control

I'm learning how to make it not hurt control
And part of that, I think, is the illusion of control
I muted your posts and stories so I rarely see you when I don't want to control
But when I do I can click past control
You don't text me first (I wonder why? but it's okay because I'm in control)
I don't think about it control
When I do I talk through it control
I smile. control
I focus on moving on control
I focus on who I want to become control
You exist, I don't pretend otherwise control