my shameful desire x bws

fourteen.

brad's point of view

I went outside for some air. I like being alone; you can think...let your thoughts run wild. The boys had spoke to me, told me to make my mind up about her. I don't really understand them we are just friends. Just friends...
I mean, I love spending time with her she's great. We have a different kind of connection, I don't like lying to her though. I've told her that I'm always thinking about home, it's not all a lie. But most of my head is filled with Lucy.
I run my hand through my curls, tugging hard at my lip. Waiting for the sour taste in my mouth. I know there's more she wants to tell me, but I'm giving her time. Everyone deserves time; that's why I'm waiting. But the boys have made me think, maybe I do feel more for her. Well I know the answer, and I do. I'm not lying anymore. I've never felt so hung up, so attached to one person.But I can't let these feelings take over me. Yes I've fallen and yes it's her.

Lucy.

But we can't be more, we can only be friends.