my shameful desire x bws

thirty-four. [1]

I didn't want it to end like this; I don't think anyone else did either. I told myself that even though I have my small suitcase next to me that's not making me go. Going there didn't threaten me as much, however there is one thing. And I'm petrified.

Brad.

He's waiting just outside, waiting for an explanation. To why in randomly leaving and not coming back ever. It's not so random, I just chose not to tell him. The last couple of nights when I managed to sleep the same dream I had months ago returned to treat me every night.
And when I wasn't asleep, I couldn't get my mind off it. It wasn't easy, nothing's easy in this life.

Nothing.