my shameful desire x bws

nineteen.

I watched as she threw her head back and forth with laughter, her smile lighting up the room. The boys laughing at her laughing. It was cute.
I watched as her eyes joined mine; I attempted to look away but she caught me. I felt bad for not sitting with them. I just wasn't in the mood I guess. And the flirting was unreal. I felt he seat lower beside me, of course it was Brad.

"You know what I was thinking about the other day."His voice sounding enthusiastic. I turned my head pressing my lips together.

"What?"I answered in the same tone as him.

"How much you have improved, I see how you look at things now, you're different, changed and I like it not that I didn't like you before."He smiled. His smile, oh that smile. I still haven't told him everything about me but I guess it's not as huge as people may think. I just haven't told him about all the symptoms and well the possible "risks".

"Lucy?"His voice dragging.

"Yeh sorry, i know I feel better for it."I pulled of a happy look. I am happy I just don't like lying, I will tell him. I just don't know how he will take it. Maybe that's the reason I want to be with him so much. So I can have him for the time I have got left.