Your Sorrow

Chapter 4: Memories

A/N
I've decided to put Brennan's Pov for a few chapter of the story even though I initially planned for the whole story to only cater epiphany's pov. I hope that we won't have a conflict regarding that matter.
Thank you!

So there we go, a new chapter for you.

B R E N N A N

M O R N I N G || N Y C

Groaning as I wake up. I immediately have a breakfast and do my business.

I'm interrupted when my PA comes in my office.
"Sir good evening."
"Oh sive"
"I'm here to inform you that She's he-"
"WHAT"
"Sir calm down. She already lands at this very moment -"
I interrupt him and hesitantly ask.
"Is she going to the ball? That's why she's back?"
"I can say so, boss."
"Sive, I'll have my speech for tomorrow. Make sure I'll have that moment of talk." I said and dismiss him.

wow. first of all, Well... I didn't expect her to attend such gathering. But I know that I can't stop her now, she can do whatever she wants. Unlike before when we're still together.

By the way, the guy before is my PA. Sometimes I can feel him wanting to punch me whenever I make bad decisions which I can appreciate. He's doing a good job tho' kudos to that. He witnessed my idiocracy at the time of my past relationships, Including Epiphany. Which I refer as my downfall and at the same time, my improvement or what ever you call it.

I learn my flaws, I can say that I completely changed after what has happened. I learn to be happy without hurting any person. Inspite of being happy, I'm also being eaten by the guilt and sorrow of the consequences of my past actions. Which I truly regret for a very long time.

But after all, I'm proud that I changed for the better. I'm happy and excited. Hearing the news that she's here brings excitement to my heart but at the same time, I'm nervous.
What an idiot.
I am stupid.
Oh epiphany... I'm so sorry Babygirl. I'm blinded by the sins that I did. You didn't deserve that. I hope you forgive me.

Tomorrow's the ball and I can't wait to see her. I know that my presence only brings painful memories but I'll do my best to change my mistakes. I want to make her mine, and I want to make her happy.

Epiphany, I love you babygirl. I can't wait to see and hear you again.

T H E D A Y A F T E R || E V E N I N G || N Y C

She's so breathtaking, she looks perfect with that dress she wears tonight. She changed a lot, her posture, so Confident and proud. Her appearance, she stands out from the rest of the women tonight add it with that dress she wears. She looks ravishing. I noticed that her character has changed too. Before she's timid, but now goddang she speaks her mind, it's obvious that she's happy in the way she talks with her colleagues.

I want to hug her so bad but unfortunately I can't do that. My heart throbs, It's still painful. The memories of her shedding tears as I screamed at her and that's the last time we saw each other.

This night might be something that will either help me or not. I hope it will. Later this evening, I'll have a talk. I'm nervous to see what reaction she'll make.

It's been hours since the ball started. I'm currently at the distance glancing at the most beautiful girl that I'm longing to hug and kiss. It's creepy I know calm down. I'll take this slow. I want her to accept and trust me again.

The emcee starts his talk and so am I. This is it, whatever happens tonight, I'll pray it to God to end well.

I went to the stage and say what I have to say. From the start til' the end, I only look at her. She's at the distance but I can clearly see that she's shedding tears and it fucking hurts me so much to see what I've done. It's clearly obvious that until now, she's not completely moved on and still hurting which I truly understand.

It hurts the most when I'm slapped with the reality that she didn't want to hear my apologies anymore as she starts to walk out from the hall.

I couldn't stop her. I want to follow her and Hug her. Unfortunately, I cant.

I end my talk and people clapped. My PA starts talking to me at the backstage but I can't comprehend what he's saying since I'm focus on thinking where the hell could I possibly find her.

Danggit.

I stop my tracks as I've got an idea. I saw her friend but shit! I forgot her name. But I remember that it starts with K.

I have an idea of following her since it's obvious that she will find her too.

So that's what I did. I followed her as she walked right out of the balcony. It has a see-through curtain so I can see right through. It's her. My epiphany.

I lean my back at the wall near where they are and eavesdrop to their ongoing conversation.

It. fucking. hurts.

I can hear how hurt she is. But the thing that makes my heart painfully throbs when she utters that she didn't want to see me. I shrugged and accepted the parts where she wants to forget and forgive me but goddanggit, I want to see her. I want her to see me again.

After the event, they starts to leave, So am I. I spent the evening thinking and planning on how to gain her trust again.

By the way, well... you might be wondering how am I getting updates from my PA to her whereabouts. Well... it's my command to spy on her.
Yes it is creepy but I can't help it. I don't fucking know. Is it being obsessive? Goddanggit. If it is well... I love her alright. Since I've realize life and her.
I'm starting to have this feeling of possessiveness towards her so that's why I did that.

I don't want no godd*mn man to pursue her. She's mine to love, care and protect for.

My Epiphany... I can't wait to hold you in my arms again. I hope you accept my love for you again.
My thoughts starts to drift as I take my rest.

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Chapter 4 Summary: 1112 words | 11-25-18