AGONY

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       They say pain builds us but this time it wants me dead. Happiness this time you rejected me. Love? Well I rejected you but you still ruined me.
Friends here you're with a freak, I thank you but theirs no saving me. Mind theirs no way ur my servant, you're my master. Demons theirs no hiding from you. I am your dwelling place
Life you treat me like dirt on your shoes bit theirs no escaping you.

I survey my life every now and then still all I could observe was that I CAN'T BE HAPPY. The more I try to discover self love the more I get broken beyond repairs. My scars oh man you haven't seen nothing.

Feels like am trapped in a box called LIFE. Am burning in this cage. I write a lot of poems that's how I express this PAIN
Sigh.. Will I ever be happy like the cool kids? nah it's all an illusion . snap outta it!

My middle name is infecility. Am a well known sadist. My life stinksssss right from day forever it's been me! Sad, lonely, weirdo,lone wayfarer. I can go on and on

Oh thoughts my prisoner will you ever set me free?
I plea I try to flee but you're fast, too fast I say. My past you judge me I lodge with you in ur prison but this pain of agony sha never go away. 😥

Everything that I love I ruin. My friends I drive away so I don't hurt them but at the end I hurt them and myself
I have this mentality of letting people go for their own good because I know they will never be able to cope with me so why not save the drama and end it all now

My bestie my 🌟 the only guy that could put up with a freak like me I drove away
Have completely isolated myself from everyone. Am too sad my parents complain, I get angry a lot.. But I don't care about the comments. who am I kidding I care when you have BPD you'll understand
Sometimes I let it all out. I tell my self just cry, scream do all.
This feeling of emptiness dwells in me. I now have no desire to fit in again. Let me be that weirdo after all I'll forever be sad
Evey day feels like the Same. I look at the mirror all I see is a lonely soul. I have given up let the worst happens for years have been trying to be happy.
  
   Man u sure hate Me u sure love me. U sure need Me to survive you once said my agony makes you happy and u never stop smilingbecayse u feed from my pain from my sorrow. Showers of sorrow fall down like rain upon me. Am wet cold and alone and u throw me into flames 🔥 to burn to ash to dust to nothing they u do it all over and all over till am gone

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