I can help you if you want it

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Joe/ Roman POV

It was two in the afternoon and Colby still hasn't come out his room yet. I know Colby is depressed. I'm the only one that knows. He didn't even tell me I just found out by his actions. He doesn't know I know. Jon is at the store getting groceries. We all are at Colby's place in Iowa. I requested time off for all three off us. I told them Colby was real sick and me and Jon wanted to take care of him. I got us two months off. I actually took time off because of Colby. He hasn't been himself the past month. I want to talk to him but I don't want to upset him.

Colby walks out into the living room where I am right now. " Well good morning or should I say good afternoon " he just smiles a little and sits down on the couch across from me. I look at him weirdly for a second. Colby never wears hoodies... It's like eighty degrees outside and he's wearing a damn hoodie. Why? I guess I was staring for to long because he started snapping his fingers in front of my face.

" Colby? " He looks at me weirdly. " That's my name " he says smiling. " It's eighty degrees outside the fuck are you wearing a hoodie for? " I ask staring at him. He just shrugs and turns the tv on. " I got cold in the middle of the night so I put this on '' I know he's lying but I just nod and say ok. I'll talk to Jon about this when he gets home because I don't want to make a big deal out of it.. plus I don't know if Colby even really did what I think he did.

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Colby was in his room right now probably cleaning it or something because his music his on and he blast music when he cleans. Jon was probably in his room so I get up to talk to him because now it seems like a good time to. I knock on his door slightly. A couple seconds later he opens it and walks back to his bed and lays down. I close the door quietly and sit on the edge of his bed. " Can we talk? " I ask. He nods and turns the tv off and sits up. " What's up? " He ask looking at me. " I found out something and I wanna know if you noticed it too. " He looks confused for a second then lays back down. " Colby's wearing a hoodie I know " My eyes widen. " So you know? " I ask. " That he's depressed? Yeah I found out but haven't said anything " I nod slowly. " Should we? " He sighs and nods. I get up walking to the door. " Wait right now? " He ask like what the fuck. " Yeah man right now let me go in by myself and I'll come get you if I find out anything " He nods and I leave his room walking to Colby's. I walk in and he's cleaning out his closet. " Damn you didn't knock. Am I in trouble or something? " He ask but smiles. I shrug and he looks at me concerned. " Take that hoodie off " I say sternly making him look a little scared. " Why? " He ask slowly. " Colby ". He gets up and tries to walk out but I grab his arm and push him onto his bed. " I already know so you might as well just show me " He stands back up. " There's nothing to show you " I grab his arm and pull his sleeve up seeing new cuts. I walks out not saying anything then walking past Jon out the front door slamming it shut.

Jon's POV

I see a pissed off Joe walk out the front door slamming it shut. Damn. I say to myself and walk to Colby's room. He's sitting on his bed staring at the ground. He didn't pull his sleeve down so I could see the cuts on his wrist. I sigh and sit on his bed. He doesn't move or acknowledge that I'm there. We just sit there for a couple minutes saying nothing. I wasn't about to say anything or yell at him because I know how he feels. And I'm not just saying that and not meaning it I literally know how he feels.

" He hates me... doesn't he? " I was a little taken back because I didn't expect him to speak. He looks at me and I can see tears in his eyes. That puts a huge pain in my chest. I hate when either Joe or Colby cries because they are my brothers and I love them. I shake my head no. " No, no he doesn't hate you Colbs. He's just shocked and upset. " He looks back to the ground when tears fall. I grab my phone from my pocket and text Joe.

Me: Where did you go man? I'm worried..

About a minute later he text back and Colby looks at me wanting to know where Joe is too.

Joe: Don't be. I'll be fine, just need some time alone.

I sigh and Colby looks back down.

Me: When are you coming back?

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Joe: Not tonight.

I sigh again and put my phone back in my pocket. Colby lays down and stares at the ceiling. I smile slightly getting up. I walk to Joe's room and grab the teddy bear that sits on his dresser. I walk back into Colby's room and set it next to him. He grabs it and cuddles it. I smile and walk to the door. " Don't close this ok? " He nods and I walk out to the kitchen to make some food.

Joe's POV

I was walking on the beach for the past three hours to think. I wasn't going home tonight I didn't feel like it. Once I saw Colby's arm I got so upset. I wish he would of just told me that he felt so.. whatever he's feeling. I found a bench near the water on a walkway. That's where I plan to sleep. Nobody is here at this beach besides me. It's about maybe midnight now. I turned my phone off after texting Jon that I wasn't coming home tonight. I sigh and walk to the bench and lay down. Here's to a sleepless night of thinking of things I don't want to think of. Hopefully it doesn't rain.

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