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I cut my hair

And not I look like a boy so that's great. Now I'l get even more gurls. I'm getting my ears pierced(hopefully soon) so I look at least somewhat feminine. It's like a somewhat shorter version of Hazel Grace Lancaster's hair. But she is soo pretty, and I am absolutely butchering the hairstyle.

Little Rant: Kindaa don't really like my friends. Hah whoops. When I told them I was gonna cut my hair (told them, not asked them for advice, mind you) they immediately disagreed and proceeded to say that I would look ugly. I retorted by saying that I was already ugly and cutting it short won't make a difference. They called me pretty already (liesssss) and repeated that I would look ugly. A while ago, one of them said she wanted to shave her hair-which I highly doubt she would have even if her mom let her- and I told her go for it. I said she might look a little weird at first, but if she wants to she should. This was before I had bangs, so I also told her I wanted to cut my hair and get bangs. She immediately said it wouldn't suit me. Slightly different rant, but anyways, I brought up in the conversation about her wanting to shave her hair, and she responded with "It's my hair," which made absolutely no sense. Is the hair on top of my head, not my hair? Is it yours and therefore you decide whether I cut it or not? She knew she made no sense and looked away. I internally and externally rolled my eyes. My other friend repeated her statement again, but this time used 'just please' in front of her sentence. I then questioned her why she doesn't want me to cut my hair. She said, no surprise, "You'll look ugly." I said, "But it isn't you who is looking ugly. It's not you who will have their hair short. So why then?[She shrugged.] Because I'm going to make you even more unpopular?(She constantly complains and calls herself a nerd even though she is by far the most popular out of the three of us.) So why the fuck do you care that I'm cutting my hair?" She then got mad, and repeated the phrase, "So do it then. Ion care. Do it." 

Honestly I'm going to lose their friendship by the end of the year. I understand though lmao. I'm a really bad friend. I never ever text them. Never go where they want to go. I'm always leaving them to be alone or with someone else, but they'd probably rather have me gone lol. The one who wanted to shave her head even told me I wasn't good to talk to. I told her I painted a sunflower and she said I was obsessed with sunflowers lately when this was the first time I've ever talked to her about them. She said never mind, but I continued to ask her what the fuck she meant (because I'm very argumentative.) 

The one who wanted to shave her hair is really dependent. She follows me wherever I go whenever the other isn't around and she's never around. I'm in drama club because musicals. She went with me to that club because she didn't want to be alone and she hates musicals. I honestly didn't even want her there and she didn't even talk to me. If my other friend was there, then they wouldn't even talk to me. 

Whoo! I just love my friends, can't you tell?

{They're okay sometimes, but I'm just focusing on the negatives so I can vent to my one reader *coff coff* @spleggy They aren't as bad as they seem, I guess.}

^Sorry it won't let me tag them for some reason.