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I was at CVS buying my daily dose of fat and I saw ECOCO Eco Style Gel. I thought, "Ya know, my friend told me about how she really likes the stuff, but she sadly ran out. Maybe I could buy some for her."

My friend has got really frizzy, curly hair and often has flyaways all the time. I asked her a while ago if she uses gel and she responded, "Yeah, but I ran out of my Eco gel, so now I've got this crappy Walmart Gel that hardly works."

Right, so I was about to get it for her, but my brains like, "Nope. Screw that. I'm gonna think too much and make you doubt everything."

So suddenly, I was thinking about stupid stuf which really made no sense. 

1. What if she already had the gel and didn't need another one, so when I give her one it's the awkward, "Thanks... but I already have one."?

2. What if she didn't like the gel and now has a better gel and she never ends up using the gel I got her?

3. What if my other friend gets jealous because I didn't get her anything?

4. What if the whole thing is just aWKWARD because I never get anyone anything? I'm the mean one who never does stuff out of kindness. That's why I feel horrible on the last day before Christmas Break because I never buy them presents 'cause I don't have money. Which is why I specifically tell people "DON'T BUY ME ANYTHING" so they won't feel neglected or disappointed. Which is why I feel so bad and surprised and guilty getting presents because I have no money. What if they think I'm doing it so they give me something, when I don't want anything?

I don't have anxiety (I'm pretty sure, but I'm not about to self-diagnose myself with something I most likely don't have just because I worry way too much). I just think and worry wayy too much. I get anxious(but I don't have anxiety) over nothing causing me to just not do it.

So I ended up not getting the gel. Frigging brain.