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You know what really get's me mad. I've got different classes than my friends, right? Lets call them C and S. So I have no idea what goes on in those classes unless someone tells me. This dude got called into the office on accident, but my friends decided to tell me, "Yeah, he's going to detention. He's hecka bad in 2nd period class. He always talks back to the teacher; right to her face." 

The kid is usually super good, but he could be sassy sometimes, so I believed them. Stupid me. 

A few days later, they were ranting about the teacher and saying things like, "She literally hates everyone- Except for (the kid). She loves (the kid) so much." 

I said, "But I thought he always got in trouble."

Guess what they did. Laughed in my face and called me 'slow.' Like, dude. My bad for trusting my friends. My bad for thinking my friends thought better than to not tell stupid lies with no point other than making fun of me and having a stupid little 'inside joke.' And the whole purpose of which is to make fun of me. 

Makes me wanna cry, but I don't because I'm a big boy.

Lol jk, I cry all the time(not really). 

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Last night I cried. I've got my two main friends that I've known the longest, but are also really irritating(C and S). Then I've got a girl in my 1st period who is really cool and makes me feel special(I'll call her K). Then I've got another girl in my 5th who is also amazing and funny and charming(I'll call her D). 

Those two other girls are great- no doubt about it. And I was thinking last night how great they were and I started bawling because I knew that I'd never see them again after this year. I was crying and crying and wouldn't stop. I kept thinking of all the amazing little moments I've had with them. Then I realized I didn't have those cute little memories with C and S. I mean, sure, I hung out with them all the time and I had 'fun' I guess, but they weren't special like with K and D. Is that normal or bad or weird? Because I honestly have no idea.

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Sometimes C and S will get me really annoyed and I'll give really brief passive aggressive answers. I won't talk to them unless I have to. If we have to get in groups I'll be with someone else; when they ask, "Why weren't you with us?" I tell them, "Thought you were going with someone else." I'll just be really hostile. In the morning I just won't hang out with them and read instead. At lunch when it's a club day, I'll say I'm going to it, but not go to it so I don't have to hang out with them.

It goes on for maybe 2 to 5 days. I do it a lot. That's probably bad. No wonder they make fun of me. 

Lmao, sometimes I'll challenge myself to see how long I can do it. Or I wait until someone says something.

I don't like being mean. It's not fun, kids.