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Stressed out

Me: Tell me what's wrong

Alex: ......

She walks over to her bed and sits down. I come inside her room and sit right beside her.

Me: Hey, talk to me.

Tears again start to come down.

Alex: It's just everything, stress. My work, my schedule, I don't get enough sleep, then there is trying to keep up with my brothers and trying not to be distant and then you, oh gosh you, and it's all just..... hhhh

I stay quiet and listened to her, she's stressing a lot. WAIT did I hear what I think I just heard? What does she mean......me? Not the time Tanner, just calm her down.

Me: Breathe. Shhhhh, it's okay.

I held her close and hugged her. She calmed down quickly.

Me: What do you mean your work and schedule is stressing you out.

Alex: It takes around 2 hours to film until I send it to my editor. And then another 2 hours to make a thumbnail. But then when I look through the comments, there are hardly any hate comments which I'm thankful for, but when there are, they hit me hard. And my schedule, just I have no time, for myself. I'm always on the move. To a meeting, to Hi5, to film, to a photo shoot, to an interview. I just want to have more time for myself.

Me: Why don't relax from YouTube for a bit.

Alex: I could but, my fans.

Me: If you explain to them, then I'm sure they'll understand. And dude, filter out those comments. It's just one button.

She chuckled.

Me: C'mere

I gave her a hug and she excepted it with an even bigger one.

Me: You'll be okay, you just have to relax a little. You work SO hard to show others your best. And trust me, I know you, and everything about you is the best. You need to relax and charge up for the next best thing.

She wiped away her last tear and sniffled

Alex: Thanks Tanner

Me: No problem.

Me: Well, you need some sleep soooo...

I grabbed her phone and turned off her alarm.

Me: Don't come in tomorrow, I'll tell Matt, you go to sleep. I'll finish this.

She giggled as we exchanged our goodnights one last time.

I sat on the couch till 11:00 pm putting the last touches on the thumbnail. I saved it and went to sleep. Still anticipated to know what she means when she mentioned me along all the things she's stressed over. I woke the next morning, 8am. I got ready to go quietly so she wouldn't wake up. I left her place and went to work. I kept wanting to go back in there and kiss her but that would be wrong to do the morning after she had a mental breakdown. I felt so bad, I hated to see her so sad.