Caspar's pov**
I woke up this morning with someone's arms around me.
Joe.
He stayed? Why did he stay?
I put my head on his chest cuddling closer.
Suddenly I had the urge to pee. Great way to ruin this perfect moment.. When would I ever to get the chance to be this close to Joe again?
I laid there a while longer. I couldn't hold it anymore, I slipped out of his grip and walked to the bathroom.
After doing my business I washed my hands, splashed my face with some cold water and dried my face. I decided to brush my teeth and hair.
I walked back into the room deciding what I was going to wear today,
I heard Joe moving around. I decided to ignore it. He usually wakes up late.
"Cas.."
God that morning voice..
I turned to look at him.
"Yes Joe?"
I turned back around to continue looking for clothes.
I heard him get out of bed and approach me. I felt his warm breathe on my neck. I shivered.
I grabbed a pair of sweatpants. Looking for a shirt to go with them.
"We need to talk."
God not this again. I gripped the sweat pants tighter. Please no. Don't tell me he regrets kissing me last night..
I turned to face him.
"About what?" I asked pretending to be clueless.
"You know what Caspar. Don't act like you don't remember.."
I wish I wouldn't remember..
Actually no I don't, I'm proud to say I acted on my feelings finally and didn't get pushed away..
I've read fan fictions about us, and usually when one of us finally get the courage to tell the other they get pushed away or they have someone else. I didn't want that.. But I had to tell.
"Cas..?"
"I get it. You want to tell me you regret last night.You only this of me as a frien-"
I cut myself off as I got pushed against the wall.
"That's not true.." He sighed.
"Sure it isn't.. You don't have to pity me. You just scared I'll cut myself again."
"Caspar, that's not true.. I'm not doing this out of pity.. I truly do like you."
"That's not what you told Alfie.." I mumbled.
"You heard that?"
"You basically screamed it. I wouldn't be surprised if the neighbors knew.."
"Cas, it's not that I didn't like you, I was surprised. I didn't know how to act.. You were drunk.. How do you remember all this?"
"I just do.."
He looked me in the eyes.
Joe stop..
It's like we're having a staring contest..
I blinked.. I guess I lose.
I don't think he noticed because he still staring at me.
Maybe he zoned out..
I snapped my fingers in front of his face as I called his name.
"Jooooeee.."
"Joooee."
"JOE!" I yelled making him jump.
"Sorry.." He apologized.
"For what?"
"Hurting you. Not being there for you."
"Oh."
He nodded letting go of me and backing away. I watched him walk out.
Thats it? He's done with me?
I felt my eyes begin to water.
I'm done crying over you Joseph Sugg..
I'm done hurting over you.
I'm just done with you.
I grabbed my phone and my wallet. With one last glance at Joe's door I ran upstairs and out the front door.
I didn't know where I was going but I was not staying there with him. He's hurting me more and more with out knowing it and that's the problem. He's hurting me and doesn't know. Does he even care?
Most likely not..
My phone started ringing, without checking who it was I picked up.
"Hello?" I said.
"Cas, hey where'd you go?"
"For a walk around town."
"Oh where are you now..? If you don't mind me asking.."
"Um I actually don't know.." I said embarrassed.
"Do you want me to come find you?"
"Uhh.. No, it's okay.. I find my way home.."
"Cas just tell me what street your on.."
"There's no street signs.."
"Oh, what does it look like?"
"Ugly. It's dirty and there's trash everywhere.."
"Caspar.. I think your on the bad side of town, stay put I'm coming. And don't talk to anyone! Keep to yourself. And be safe!"
"No don't go! Stay on the phone, please.."
"I'm coming Cas, I'm quite close. Start walking and well meet in the middle."
"Okay."
I saw a shadow. Is that Joe?
When I got a little closer I saw who it was.
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A/n Sorry I haven't updated!! I had to make this up as I went! I have no idea where I'm going with this story.. So bare with me. Updates will be slow!
