I was going to wait a couple days before updating.. But I had an idea and I didn't want to loose it! I hope it goes how I had it planned in my head.. This chapter is dedicated to surhenree for this idea! I love you! 😘
Chapter 8 -
Caspar's Pov**
It's been almost 2 weeks since I last saw Joe. I know I told him I'd only be gone a week but its been harder than I though to get over him..
I miss him so much, I think I might go back today. I need to talk to him, I need to hear his voice. Even if he does just yell at me the whole time, I just need to be by him. I know it's my fault I left him, it was one of the stupidest things I've ever done. If not the it was the stupidest thing I've ever done.
And I do know I told him I didn't want to be the one he eventually falls in love with, but honestly I do. I want to be the first person he tells he loves. No matter how long it takes, I will get him to tell me he loves me.
So with that in mind, I left the hotel I was currently at. I got a cab and told them the directions to Joe and I's flat. When he pulled up I quickly paid him and jumped out of the cab almost tripping a few times.
When I got inside I didn't see Joe. I walked down stairs and opened his door. He wasn't here.. Where could he be? I looked around for something that could tell me if he was here. His phone and keys where gone, so I guess he's out. Probably filming with a friend or something.
I walked into the kitchen and saw something I never wanted to see again..
A bloody knife.
I felt tears sting my eyes. Did Joe cut himself? Why? Why would he do that! He's so strong! He wouldn't do something like that! Unless I really hurt him that bad..
I rushed downstairs and went into my bathroom. 'I really shouldn't do this' I thought.
But my hands had a mind of their own and they swiped the razor a crossed my wrist, one more for my collection.
I heard the front door open just as I was about to add another cut. Joe's home.. I quickly washed my arm and hid the razor. I dried my arm carefully and slipped my sleeve down.
I walked up the stairs and there stood Joe, he had his arms on the counter with his head on top. A sob escaping his lips. I slowly approached him, and wrapped my arms around his waist. He tensed up then relaxed after a minute.
"Joe.." My voice came out pathetic and weak.
He turned around. I wish he didn't..
His face was red, his eyes were puffy, he had tear stains, and a long scratch running down his cheek, along with a few light bruises. What happened to him?
He hasn't said anything yet. His face was emotionless. What happened over the past 2 weeks?
He grabbed my hands and pulled them off his waist and walked downstairs.
"Joe.." I said again, it came out as a whisper. I could barely hear it myself so no doubt Joe hadn't heard me.
Was he already over me?
I followed him downstairs. He walked into his room, I was about to walk in but stopped. He was staring at me from his doorway. He looked away then closed the door in my face.
I knocked a couple times. Would he ever let me in? I slid down the door and brought my knees to my chest and began quietly crying. I didn't want Joe to know how weak I was so I got up and walked into my room. Or what was left.. He had most of my things packed up or broken on the floor.
Was he kicking me out?
I walked back to his room. I opened the door and saw Joe crying on his bed. His stuff was packed up to. What was going on?
"Joe? Why are our rooms packed up?"
He looked at me with tears going down his face. I walked over to him and put my hand on his shoulder. He moved away to the other side of the bed.
"Joe?" I asked again.
"I didn't think you were coming back.." He whimpered.
"Awe, Joe come here.." I held my arms out and he slowly moved into hug me. I kissed his head. He began to drift off to sleep so I placed him under the blank. I kissed his cheek and walked into my bathroom. Time to finish what I started.
I grabbed my razor and began slicing my skin.
Joe's pov** (I know, this is weird. But I wanted to try something new.)
I woke up and heard Caspar scream. Is he okay?!
I jumped out of bed and ran into his room, he was in the bathroom.. Please god no, not again.. I slowly opened the door, tears threatening to spill. I saw Caspar passed out on the floor, blood running from his arms. I quickly ran and grabbed the phone and called 911 and gave them the address. ( I know they don't use that, but I don't know what number they use.. Woops!)
I told them he was loosing a lot of blood, they told me to wrap his arms. So I grabbed the nearest towel and wrapped both arms I kissed his face saying 'its okay' 'You'll be okay' and 'Please don't die Caspar!' I was crying to the point where I couldn't really see anything.
People came running in and took Caspar away. I followed them up stairs, outside, and to the ambulance. They allowed me to sit in the back with him.
I held his hand saying an occasional 'You better not die Caspar..' I didn't know what to say, I didn't even know he was still doing this! I wanted to be mad but I couldn't bring myself to be. I was more upset. I felt broken and pathetic. I couldn't do anything to help him now. I was to late..
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We finally arrived at the hospital and they rushed Caspar in, and into a room. I wasn't allowed to go in yet so I stayed in the waiting room and cried my eyes out worried sick he wouldn't make it.
About an hour later they asked who was here for Caspar and I shot up ad ran to the doctor.
"How is he?" I asked.
"He's doing pretty well, he's awake if you want to go see him."
I thanked the doctor an ran to his room. They first thing I did when I walked in was cry. I ran over to his bed and pulled him into a hug.
"Joe, you actually came?"
"Of course I did! Why wouldn't I?!"
"I was starting to give up on you.. I thought you were over me.. You didn't even want to talk to me.."
"Cas, I might be stubborn, but please.. The only thing I could ever ask from you is to please never give up on me.. No matter how bad the situation.."
He nodded wiping tear away. I pulled him in for another hug.
"Cas you should get some sleep, we'll talk tomorrow."
"Are you staying?"
"I could never leave you."
"Thank you."
He scooted over and patted the space beside him, telling me to come lay by him. I carefully got into the bed and wrapped my arm around him. I felt my eyes getting heavy and Caspar's were already shut. I looked at his face and kissed his forehead.
"P.s I love you." I whispered in his ear.
With that said I drifted off to sleep.
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Joe finally said it!! Joe loves Caspar!!
Anyways ILY GUYSS SSOOOOO MUCH!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING MY STORY!!
That sounds like I'm ending it.. I'm not. Its not over yet, still lots of chapters left. So don't worry, if you were worried..
Bye!! 😘💞
