Take it in stride
Pretend you have pride
Try to hide
That pent-up fear inside
Don't let them see
The pain within me
Choose your battles wisely
Is that even a possibility
There's so much damage that has been done
Yet I still can't just make myself numb
I can't stop the thoughts
Embedded so strong
I'll never feel right
Always forced to see I'm wrong
Take on this struggle
As if I own that shit
Why don't I have it in me
To just give the fuck up and quit
So many say
How it will only get better
Don't be a fool
It's only getting harder
Because everything will continue this way
I'm making a choice
To go on in this play
I'm nothing more
Than a puppet in life
No matter how much
It cuts like a knife
It's not even sharp
It's dull as hell
So that pain inside
Does nothing but swell
Yet, somehow
I keep pushing on
Just waiting
For everything else to go wrong
It may be days
Or maybe weeks
But probably not
Only a matter of minutes
Before I get shot
Another load of bullshit
I didn't expect
But somehow,
I'm sure it's correct
Because I was not meant to be
Living a life
Completely pain free
