Junior Year - Twists and Turns

Chapter 1: The Break-Up

Me: I’m sorry, I can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep doing the same thing over and over again…

Oscar: Answer the phone, you know I’m going to keep calling

Me: Stop trying, that’s only going to piss me the fuck off and you know that

Oscar: Answer, please

Me: No, I’m at home with my family, you know better than to call me

Oscar: Fine, but listen to me.

Me: Fine

Oscar: Listen, I forgive you… it’s not your fault and I don't want this to end this way

Me: No, okay. I’m done with this. I’m tired of feeling stuck, like i’m not going anywhere. Anyways you shouldn’t be saying that you’ll take me back because I didn’t cheat and I’m making that clear, we were on a break.

Oscar: Okay, I understand, I’m sorry. I just wish that bastard didn’t do this to us.

Me: Ha, funny he didn’t do this to us. We did this to us. I’m not breaking up with you for him. I don’t want to be with anyone. Anyways I’ve been trying to break up with you and You wouldn’t let me because you would get in a certain mood.

Oscar:I know but he made us end it sooner

Me: If it would have ended it later, it would have been worse.

Oscar: Yeah, I know.

Me: Sorry

    I know that breaking up over text is something I swore I would never do… but I’m scared of what could have happened if I did it in person. I had been with Oscar for two years and just like that it was over. I thought Oscar was the one, guess I was wrong. I know that it’s still only been 2 weeks, but it’s still an everyday struggle for me to process the fact that it’s over. After that break up scenario I had to text my girls, duh, what else would a stupid girl like me go do? That was my honest mistake.

Me: It’s over, for good

Mileidi: Damn, you okay?

Me: Yeah, I guess… this sucks

Mileidi: It’s a good thing you told him though.

Me: I guess

Alexis: How’d he take it?

Me: How else would he take it? He’s mad. Just he’s telling me that he’s okay, but he’s complaining to Hilda that he’s mad.

Mileidi: That’s who he is

Alexis: Yeah, just let him be. He’ll get over it sooner or later.

Me: I’m scared to tell Hilda though

Mileidi: Why?

Me: She might kill me

Mileidi: Just tell her

Me: ugh, fine but if I die, I’m blaming you

    I love hilda to death because that’s my ride or die chick but she had a gut feeling that I would do something with the other guy. Oh and I’m pretty sure you guys are wondering who the mystery guy is right? Well, they call him Chiko and let’s just say he’s either going to be a blessing or a lesson.

Me: I ended it with Oscar

Hilda: Again ??

Me: Yeah, but this time it’s forreal

Hilda: What happened?

Me: I kissed someone else

Hilda: Andrea ! I fucking knew it. I had a bad feeling.

Me: I know, I told Oscar, and he’s mad

Hilda: Obviously!

Me: :/

    The rest I can’t honestly remember word by word, but Hilda put me in my place. She said everything she had to say and made her point clear. I got cursed at and felt like absolute shit but I couldn’t do much than turn to my razors, especially with what happened after I talked to Hilda. I went on my ask.fm and find these really fucked up questions and begin to flip. I had only told Hilda, Mileidi, Alexis and this other girl Noor, but I really doubt they would ever cross me like that. I went to the conclusion that Oscar told one of his friends, but he said he didn’t. From that point forward I realized I couldn’t trust anyone for shit.

Question:

fuck you bitch you don’t deserve someone like him with your fake ass

 My Answer:

Lol you want him or something? Come on I know you’re someone I thought was my friend so stop being Anonymous. We both agreed on it go fuck with his ask if you so desperate for his dick bruh.

   Whoever asked me the question got offended and deleted it, I guess people are right when they say I can be mean. I was only single for like 4 hours and people were tripping, I knew that this would be a summer of disasters and the school year to come is going to be filled with a bunch of twists and turns.