Junior Year - Twists and Turns

Chapter 3: The Benefits

When I broke up with Oscar, I wasn't planning on seeing anybody or anything like that. But for some reason I felt like I needed to have a stupid summer fling or something... biggest MISTAKE of my life. Call me a bitch for what I did but, that day, when me and Oscar broke up, Chiko and I talked about becoming eachothers friends with benefits. The first day I met Chiko in person I felt like he was going to be a big impact in my life and oh how right I was.

On Friday, two days after we had talked we decided to meet up at the creek, my mom had me running errands with her all morning and I thought I was gonna miss meeting up with Chiko and I asked her to drop me off at the mall because I told her that my friends wanted to hang out there. Once she left I headed to the creek and then ended up having to walk further to Willow Run and past the bridge because he wanted me to meet him near his place.

When I saw him, I felt all girly, and I fucking hated that cause that's when I start gaining feelings I ain't supposed to even be catching. I was on the other side of the bridge and when I crossed the street I almost died cause this car almost ran me over and I cursed at the driver and I'm pretty sure Chiko flicked the bastard off. Chiko hugged me and we started walking, I know people that live in this complex and I was more afraid of getting seen by someone from my congregation and getting snitched on to the elders. Oh, and to clarify I'm a study with the Jehovah's Witnesses.

We got to his place and stood outside and then he lead me through this entrance on the side of his building. Turns out it lead to one laundry room and then to the next building, we kept walking until we stopped at one laundry room where he locked us in so that no one could come in.

I sat at the table that was there and he threw his jacket on there and he went to turn the lights out, and he only did that because I had told them that the dark is my biggest fear. When he came back he sat across from me and he started to scroll through pictures on his phone, and then he started showing me, "This is my ex, and that's Wise's niece.. Aliciya's Baby, that was me before I was locked up, and that's you."

I was pretty dumbfounded at the fact that he had saved that picture of me, I didn't really expect that at all. He set his phone to the side and took my right hand in his, gave the back of my hand a kiss, and then placed the palm of my hand on his cheek. I started to feel butterflies and I was smiling, he lit up his phone on me and said, "I knew you were smiling."

I had nothing to really say but just smile, I hadn't really felt the way I was feeling in forever. Oscar and I had been arguing about the smallest stupid shit that we forgot to see everything else that made us last as long as we did. I wanted to cry at that point because all I could think about was Oscar and how much I had hurt him and screwed him over. I pulled away from him and sighed, he got up, came over to my side, took my hand and pulled me up. He leaned on the table, pulled me into his chest and asked, "What are you thinking?"

"Why do you assume I'm thinking?" I asked looking to the side because I couldn't bare to look him in the eyes without him seeing the tears.

"Do you trust me?" He asked in such a weird way

I actually took that question like a hit, "What... I don't know."

"How do you not know," he sounded a little mad or hurt.

I looked up at him, "It's just that I don't know you like that, I don't know what you're capable of, I mean like up to now yeah I guess I do trust you, but I don't know."

"I get it," he sounded sympathetic.

He tilted my chin up and leaned in for a kiss, it felt like the first time I kissed him, and the sad part was that I liked it. He pulled away and asked, "Do you wonder why the wrong thing feels so right?"

I looked up at him and nodded.

"And I bet you wonder why I asked that..." he paused to give me a kiss, "It's because I wonder the same thing too. You know we got to live and be a little wild because if we don't we might miss out on a lot of things."

I really didn't know what to say, I just leaned into his chest and laid my head on it. He leaned his head on mine and kept giving my forehead a kiss. He hugged me tight and it felt so right to be there in that moment, but it was all so wrong. I pulled away to look up at him and he sort of smiled and leaned in and i started to lean up and we kissed.

His soft lips and mine just moved together all so right, his hands on my waist and my arms around his neck as I pulled him in every time to feel the warmth of his body. He pulled me up and then I was on my tiptoes, that's when I started adding bites in between kisses. I pulled him back down and then he started moving his hands around, he didn't know whether he should go down and around or up and above. After a good few minutes of him battling with himself on where to place his hands, he goes for my boobs with one hand and my ass with the other.

I felt weird and I giggled in between a kiss and he pulled away and asked, "Are you sure?"

I wasn't sure at all what the hell I wanted, I just felt so confused, "I guess."

"Take off your shirt," he hesitated a bit before saying that.

I started to pull off my shirt and he helped me, then he unhooked my bra. He man-handled my boobs and then he made me lean on the table so he was leaning on me. It was getting hot and very intense, he starts to unzip his pants and asks, "Are you ready?"

I smiled, "The question is are you ready?"

He went from 10 to zero in a flash and started mumbling, "Please tell me I have it, please, shit, I'll be right back."

He zipped up his pants and ran out the laundry room and I just laughed and waited for him to come back.

A few minutes passed and he rushes through the door saying, "I got it, I ran past my sister and she looked at me like 'what the fuck.'"

I giggled and then he was leaning on me again. We got back into the mood real quick, he then lifted me, put me on the table and screwed me.