Cancerous [ NovaHD Fanfic ]

Chapter E l e v e n

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- A l e k s POV -

I was tapping my fingers against my knee as I was sitting in the car besides James. I kept thinking about possible places we could go by the direction we were driving. I had no clue. The car ride had been quiet so far. James wasn't saying anything to me, he just had his eyes on the road. Occasionally, he would scream at someone who didn't use their turn signal or who cut them off. I just smiled as I looked out the window watching the trees and cars go past us. It was rather peaceful. 

The silence was broken as we arrived at some mountains in the middle of no where. 

"Aleks, we have to walk the rest of the way." James told me as I looked over at him. His facial expression was confident of where we where and he wanted me to trust him. I nodded.

"Alright, I hope its not a long ways. I hate walking." I opened my car door as I helped James take out the materials he had brought in a bag. 

As we were walking up the mountains, I noticed how long we had been driving for. We left pretty early in the morning and it was alright about 7 o'clock. Did it really take that long to get here? Holy shit... 

We arrived at the mid way spot of the mountain. James wasn't talking to me but it seemed as if his thoughts had a hold of him. I really hoped it wasn't the surgery tomorrow. James would come out okay, right? At least I hoped so..

- J a m e s POV -

It was funny seeing Aleks worry about where we were going and what we were doing. I was happy that he had something on his mind besides tomorrow. 

The night sky was going to be rolling in soon and this was perfect for me, my plan was going pretty well. I know we didn't do anything really meaningful during the day, but this night should be pretty damn meaningful. 

We arrived at the spot I wanted us too and I looked over at Aleks. I smiled as I wrapped my arm around him. "I know this took longer than expected, but this is the best place I know of. This is my place and I wanted to share it with you." I smiled over at him as his cheeks turned pink. 

"Your place, huh? I think it's gorgeous..." He said as he was looking forward out onto the rest of the world. 

"It is gorgeous, you are gorgeous as well, Aleksandr." I looked over at him as he avoided my eyes and shuffled uncomfortable. I removed my arm from around him as I took out the blanket from the bag. I wrapped it around Aleks. "I don't know if you are going to need this or not, but it does get chilly here at night." 

I began to take out the rest of what I had brought. I brought a bottle of wine, and two glasses. Thankfully, I didn't need to bring any dinner food because, we had already stopped and ate at a fast food resturant. 

I poured out some wine in a class and I swished the cup around. I made sure to let the wine breathe and I handed it to Aleks. "Enjoy." I gave him a small smile as I poured myself a glass. 

To be honest, I wasn't really suppose to be drinking wine because of my surgery and how it could react with some pills I've been taking. Tonight, I didn't care. I wanted to be a normal human being and enjoy a glass of wine with someone I cherished. 

"What is this all for?" I looked up as Aleks was looking into his glass. 

"I just wanted to be up here with you. We haven't been able to have alone time in what seems like a long time. I hate being this way with you, Aleksandr. I want to go back to how things were." I sighed as I took a sip of my wine, enjoying the taste as it washed down my throat. "I want to be able to fuck around with you and call you an asshole. I want to be how we were before you found out I had a high chance of killing over in the morning." 

I feel like that was too strong. I bit my lip as I looked off from the cliff and sat down on the edge. I drank more from my glass as I heard foot steps come up from behind me and sit next to me.

"I want to go back to that too. I don't like worrying about you constantly, James. I want to piss you off and have you call me an annoying fucker and tell me that I'm a stupid bitch." A smile cracked on my face as well as Aleks. Then, it faded. "But we can't...and it is because you have cancer and because you might die. You could die right here, right now. So, until I know you are healthy, things aren't going to change. I'm going to worry about you and I'm going to be serious. I can't joke around, not right now."

Great, that was great. I frowned and chugged the rest of the wine, pouring another glass. I guess it was time to be up front with Aleks. He deserved it anyway. 

"I might die on the operating table tomorrow." I bluntly said, looking over at Aleks. He seemed to be frozen and I sighed, closing my eyes. I continued. "I promised you that I would be fine but I did that because I wanted you to feel better inside. There isn't a hundred percent chance I'll live but I'm strong and I'm a fighter. So, I believe that I will. But if I don't, don't you dare turn miserable or sad. Don't cry over my body. I want you to be happy and move on with your life. I don't want to see you in a depressed state, Aleksandr." 

- A l e k s POV -

Did he...did he just pretty much tell me that he was going to die? I was frozen in my position, holding my cup up midway to my mouth and facing straight forward. When James was done speaking, I felt a rain drop fall down my cheek. It was when I went to wipe it away, I soon realized that I was crying. I sat my cup down as I sniffled and wiped my eyes. I turned to look at James who gave me a sad and apologetic look. 

"You are talking as if you know you are going to die tomorrow. James, I am going to cry over your body. I'm going to become sad and I'm not going to be able to move on so quickly." I squeezed my eyes shut as I looked down. "I love you, James. So, so much. I won't be able to get over you that quickly...but I'm going to stop talking as if you are dying tomorrow because, you WON'T die tomorrow. You will live and you will come home to me." I looked over and smiled at him. "You will come home and be with me." 

He smiled faintly and just nodded. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close. I felt his lips against my forehead and I closed my eyes. We spent the rest of that night in each others arms, admiring the scene and being wrapped in each others embrace.