Spirits (on ＨＯＬＤ）

Shame

Imma do this a little bit differently. This is Chris's point of view. And this is a dream that Lance is in. Chris was Lance's boyfriend until- you know what let me just show you.

Chris P.o.v.

I was drunk. That really all I remember, and something else but it's fuzzy. That and also that I was yelling at my lovely boyfriend, Lance...

Today I was supposed to sing at a show and my lovely boyfriend Lance. He's probably frustrated, scared, mad just so much emotions. But this song I'm about to sing is going to be about him... Let's just hope that this works out...

I walked over to the stage and lit up my vaper. It helped me out in every way possible in this situation. When I was ready to sing my precious blue flower wasn't on the stage yet. Sighing I grabbed a hold of the microphone.

I need your forgiveness
And your mercy too
I must be all kinda crazy
For what I've done to you
I hope you understand
That my heart is true
Mistakes, I've made 'em
But I'm making a change for you

I looked over and saw sweet baby blue. His eyes were sparkled over with pain. I wish I could just run over and tell him everything was going to be alright.

Have I learned, that's your question
And my answer I have
But if you're expecting perfection
Then we're not gonna last
This is not an excuse
I'm just telling the truth
Baby, I'm so sorry
For hurting you

But I can't since one were preforming, and second because he doesn't want to be near me.

Oh, I'm ashamed of me (shame on me)
Wish I never done you wrong (shame on me)
Every night of us I dream
That I wake up in your arms

The reason why I know he doesn't want to be near me is because whenever I walk over near him he suddenly runs away.

I know why you left me
But since you've been gone
My understanding
Has moved and grown
I've come to this conclusion
Over and over again
I don't want an enemy
I just want back my friend

I've treated him like a piece of shit. I wanna go back into the past and make myself not go to that place.

Oh, I'm ashamed of me (shame on me)
I wish I never done you wrong (shame on me)
Every night of us I dream
That I wake up in your arms

But I can't. What happened has happened.

Wish I could say sorry
Oh will you come back home
Hey, baby, yeah
I was dumb as can do it
So I wouldn't have to be alone
Yeah, hey
If I knew then what I know now
Everything would be
Yeah, yeah, yeah

No matter who you are the world still hates you...

I'm so ashamed, ashamed of me (shame on me)
Said I wish I never done you wrong (shame on me)
Every night of us I dream
That I wake up in your arms

And I'm stupid to now realize that..

I'm ashamed of me, yeah (shame)
I'm ashamed of all the lies I told (shame)
Wish I come home, wish I come home at tonight (shame)
Girl I wish I've never grieve all ? (Shame)
I'm ashamed of me, yeah (shame)
I'm ashamed of me
Come home babe
What I supposed to do with these kids
Baby, I'm ashamed
I'm so sorry, babe
I'm so sorry

When I finished I looked back up to see Lance looking over at me with pain and regret. But mostly a look that he would never forgive me... I messed up so much. I am Ashamed of myself. And that's my self to blame...