Spirits (on ＨＯＬＤ）

A Pencil

A pencil.

A fucking pencil.

A pencil that can ruin something.

A mistake.

A accident.

A argument.

Just something.

And it all just starts with one pencil.

My friend. I'm just gonna name her mmm Ari.

Ari said that I somehow took her pencil during our last class today before clubs. From my perspective I brought over two different pencils from my desk which is in the front of the room. One was black with the green clip on the side while the other was Green with a purple clip. One was 0.7 led and the other was 0.9.

When I walked over to my friend to work with her Ari was next to her. BTW my friend is WHYAREYOURUNNIN y'all should follow her. Great meme legend. Plus she had a boot leggo.

Anyways, When I sat down and placed my pencils down. Then Ari picked up my green one. She then dropped it on the floor. When I picked it up then she legit starts yelling saying that I was a liar. Me being who I am is just leaning in the chair, taking this actually quite fine. I've been through worse things than just this. She told the teacher and all eyes were on us. I stayed in my chair and looked at everyone slightly shrugging my shoulders. Really she didn't have to make a big ass deal about it but nope. Just had to.

While I was working with them she kept on making comments about me being a liar. I remember one of them being something like, "I can't believe I'm working with a liar." Or some shit. But still I didn't care one bit. I guess you could ask my friend for details since she was very close to her.

It kind of hurt me because whenever shit like this happens I always have this little negative thought in my head then it starts to become worse. Some people might understand but well not really. But my thought was telling me like 'Oh, your black no one cares about a black kid. They always get blamed on. Probably are a liar just from the look of it.' And it's just like. All coming to me saying like why do I live in a world where all of this negativity is and everything? Why do I have all of these negative thoughts going through my head?

I'm hella tired and a lot of shit is going on through my mind. But the most is fackin Halloween. It is Octorbre my dudes. I wanna ask what you guys are gonna be for Halloween but-NONE YA TALK rip. But yeah I just wanted to talk about what was going on. Just a part of it not everything.
Anyways thank you for reading this and I will try to write a new chapter