Hi. Actually i dont even know what is happening to me. This is not a book with a plot or story btw its just i need to release this tons of shit that is overflowing inside of me . I dont get it. I dont know when i became so fuckin emo. My life is normal just like any other teenager. Im a gurl anyway.
So today is just like any other ordinary day. I have my class. And its soooooo tiring. The moment i step inside the classroom i really want to just go home and sleep. Im happy. Wait- what? Im happy? No i lied. Im miserable. Im faking it. Im hiding it. Because i dont want to bother or be a burden to anyone. I like to keep to myself. Im good at hiding btw. Sooo in class i am known as the most cheerful and joyful student. I dont even know how i get to did that every day. Im really good at pretending huh. Im so thankful for my friends they make me feel good and forget about all of my worries for just a moment. Im laughing. Laughing is like one of the best feeling of all cuz you got to realize that you actually can be happy. Im good at fooling around. In that way im transforming in my newself that eveybody know of. And as the end of the class is like the end of my pretending. When i go home thats the real suffering came. And no my family is not bad. They actually one of the greatest person i know they didnt hurt me. So its all ME yes. Its me. Im hurting myself. And i didnt know why. And that really hurts is that youre hurting but you didnt know the reason why. Im sad and i didnt know why. Having no reason is more worst than having a reason. I really wanna know why. But it gets harder everyday. Because i think im-
Im suffering from depression
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Adventurei dont even know why i did this i just know that i need to release my feelings and somehow wrote it so it hurt less
