feelings

entry 3

I just realized that its almost december and im still depress lmao
Also,im kinda thankful that this book had no read. Yazz👌. I just hope that no one will find this. Im actually happy that way. Anyways. Im in my room right now. I changed my curtain to a dark one so its suits my feelings lol. Im kiddin i changed it cuz i dont want any light popping out of it. I just want my room dark. Maybe im a vampire tho. Update on me: im still sad without a reason. Heck this is me everyday. You know that you got into a moment wherein you have no motivation at all its just you dont want to move or anything. As just you know no one knows im depress☺ which is way more better. As ive just said i like to keep it myself. I really want this to end. Im kinda jealous of my childhood me cuz i didnt have to experience this feelings. I dont want to be myself. I feel stuck, i feel torn. I dont want to be this way. Its eating me. All of this emotions are eating me. But what actually keeps me to hold on is that i wish someday i can

Save myself