If we were together and you saw me crying what would you do? Would I be able to feel comfortable enough to tell you what's going on?
Today I woke up knowing I had my science fair presentation. I put on a fake leather brown skirt with a blue lined formal long sleeve. I did my makeup going for Browns, my shoes are brown too...
I looked in the mirror and found myself beautiful... I don't know if you remember but, I never feel 100% ok with myself... I always find something ugly but today I felt amazing... then... it all went down...
My mom told me I looked awful... that the shirt didn't match but there was no other shirt that I thought fitted the same... I had thought I looked beautiful and she said the opposite...
I ended up fighting with her and being able to bring the shirt I wanted but...
All I wanted to tell her was:
"Mom! Can't you see!!??? I felt beautiful this morning! Out of all my bad mornings I felt beautiful to my own eyes! Didn't you know that last year I was depressed with my weight and my acne? Didn't you know?"
Do you think I look pretty? Did you ever thought of me as more than a friend?
In my mind I have all this questions for you... just the same as you did when I told you I liked you but...
The problem is... you were brave enough to ask... and I can't bring myself to do that...
And for that I'll say... I'm sorry... I'm sorry for being coward (is it even spelled correctly?)...
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RomanceI didn't notice how much you meant to me until I found myself crying over you. I guess... I did love you then... "The hardest part is not gaining you but, letting go..." I can remember your name... You'll be FC, the simplicity doesn't matter... The...