Annihilation

Chapter 1

I have been burnt

And I have been scorned

On the rise of the devil

The ashes of an angel are mourned

-AUVIYA

CHARLOTTE

I wake up out of breath, looking around frantically ,trying to reassure the fragile , long gone girl that the monsters that broke her long ago were no longer there.

They are not here . It was all a dream ,Charlotte. THEY ARE NOT HERE.

The walls are strong. You don't see them . You don't hear them. It's over.

I scanned my surroundings, I was in my dorm room. I tried to calm my racing heart as I shifted to grab my phone ,it was five in the morning.

I sighed.

After so many years they still haven't stopped. Damn it, I want to scream with frustration. Why do these nightmares keep coming? I am fucking over it. Even as I thought that my hand automatically rose to trace the scar over my eye.

"yeah ,over it ". My mind scoffed. I closed my eyes.

Slowly I rose up from my bed and moved out of my room to the common kitchen. I turned the coffee maker on. It was another courtesy from Garret ,my ....well, boyfriend . It still sounded so weird . I sighed willing myself to ignore that fact even as a pang of gilt ricocheted through my heart. The only problem was that ignoring that bought me back to the reason behind why I was awake an hour before I needed to be.

I wonder when they will stop. I haven't had one in so long then why today? A day before a new chapter of my life was about to unfold?

I guess its god's way of keeping me on my toes . Another reminder of the night I lost it all. The night I was betrayed . Betrayed by the only person I trusted . The night all that I was and all that made my world was slowly carefully deliberately annihilated. Yeah, like the scar isn't enough .

I go to the bathroom ,and after taking care of my business , look at the mirror. Lifting my finger , I trace my scar .

"Stop!!!" I screamed "No, help"

"Shut the fuck up" screamed Damion as he backhanded me so hard I almost lost my consciousness again

"Spread you legs for us ,baby " Madoc slurred. I try to get free and squeezed my legs even tighter together

"NO" I scream and fight them as they try to spread my legs wide .

No ,no , no..

Someone grabbed my hair from behind

" We own you. You will do whatever we tell you to. Now spread those legs for me or we will have to do that for you and trust me you won't like it one bit" snarled Nico

I jerked ,snapping back into reality just in time to see a lone tear slide down my cheek. I quickly wipe it away .

No more fucking tears. I don't want to be weak anymore. I won't be weak anymore.

My phone rang from beside me on the countertop.

Garret.

I smiled he always knew when I needed him, I seriously don't know how he got to know but well, he just did . I answered his call.

"Hey babe , you alright?" Garret said in his deep gravelly voice.

"Hey. Yeah I am fine . You?"

The line went silent for what seemed to be forever and I prepared myself for what I knew was coming

"Another one? See this is fucking why I wanted for you to move in with me"

I sighed. Not again...

"I am fine, Garret. We have been over this. How do you even get to know when I am having a nightmare?"

His voice softened "Because I know you and I love you"

I said nothing back just like garret expected me to .The pang of guilt from earlier was back with ten times the force.

"And don't try to change the subject. You can still move in with me" he continued.

"No Garret, I am not moving in with you . I can't fucking live with your football team and so far away from campus!."

Garret had off campus housing with the football team . He wanted me to move in with him but I refused because....well, because for once I wanted to be on my own. This is my first year of college and I just want to experience everything by myself. Test it out on my own .

Garret sighs " I still don't get it. Why would you say no? ."

"Because I need to do this on my own!!"

"Fine, whatever. See you later?"

"Yeah, bye"

"Bye"

I hang up and go back to staring at the mirror no longer fixated on my scar I sigh .

Garret and I, well its not working . At least not for me . In my mind Garret is my anchor , my best friend . My confidant and I love him . so much, just not in the way he wanted me to.Suddenly another image flashed into my mind.

Him.

I flinched. Well wasn't today the day for flashbacks .In my mind he looked perfect ,like he always did. But turned out he was just wearing another mask.

Masks. We wore one for every person we faced.

I smirk at the irony. Our infatuation with masks had been unbelievable at some points.I thought I was the only one to see him without one on. I was wrong. So very wrong.

I turn back , slipping out of my clothes and stepping into the shower and I slowly constructed it. My mask for the day . I put my guard back up and in the hot stream of water I washed it all away.

I washed him away.

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A/N

Hey people, I hope you liked this chapter .

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What do you think about Garret?

Have you ever worn a mask to protect yourself??

The girl in the picture is Charlotte

and the poetry is by meeeeeee!!!!!

I hope you appreciate and enjoy it

-AUVIYA