Annihilation

Bonus Chapter

I hate everything about you

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I want to drown in the sea of numbness

I want absolution for my sins

Maybe then i will be able to forget you

Forget all our could have-beens

-AUVIYA

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MICHAEL

Calm down. I needed to calm the fuck down.

She isn't here.

I have searched every corner ,looked through every class list and she isn't fucking here.

Shit .

Where are you ,Megan?

My heart pounds and my chest constricts as any semblance of hope I had of finding her here slowly deludes me . The last thread holding an already burnt bridge finally frays as heat envelopes it . It snaps and just like that she is lost. Lost to our memories. Lost to our bond. Lost to me.

It shouldn't really bother me. I expected this. Hell, I was ready for this but damn if my gut didn't churn with disappointment , bitterness and something naming which won't do me any good. The ache in my chest, which hadn't uplifted one fucking bit since she left me all those years ago without so much of a reason or a fucking goodbye ,seems to intensify till I can barely breathe . The darkness inside me swirls and fills my throat , begging to be let out. To be released, to eviscerate the one who tried to provoke it. To annihilate anyone who took her from me ,who kept her from me.

Hate and anger warred inside me, the need for revenge clogged my mind till all I could see was the black tainting my vision. It took almost everything I had to sit through the lecture I was enduring . Music. Her favourite subject, but she wasn't here. She wasn't sitting here twiddling with her pencil so that she could supress the urge to reach out and touch whichever instrument had caught her fancy that week. She wasn't hiding behind those black locks that were just begging to be touched. Her blue eyes aren't peering at me like they used to when she thought I wasn't looking .

This was our dream. Our plan. Get into Hartford and then live our fucking lives . No longer being controlled by our demons .No longer hiding and going to bed with barely filled stomachs.

But she fucking left.

I  needed to stop . I needed to forget about her and focus on football, on my grades. Because the full ride I worked my ass off for wasn't guaranteed forever. It was at that moment that the professor finished his lecture . It was supposed to be an introductory class , one I had snuck into to look for her. I hadn't chosen it as one of my academic subjects. I rushed out of the classroom , I had no other classes today , so I started to move towards my car when a voice stopped me.

Shit

I recognized that voice after hearing it for the two hours while the person who it belonged to babbled on and on about anything and everything that existed on this earth. I turn around to face Ashton ,my housemate.

"hey rook, What are you doing here?"

He called me rook as in rookie. Har fucking har.

"I had a class"

"You're taking music?"

"Um no, I was , um.."

"scouting girls out?" He asked me almost hopefully . Wait, what?

I narrowed my eyes on him "What are you doing here?"

And that resulted into him blabbering about something I had no interest in listening to.

Ashton was..  chirpy.

I started to move towards my car hoping to avoid as much as his chatter as I could but apparently he needed a ride back to the house.

This day just keeps on getting better and better.
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