Unpredictable. Our sadness is unpredictable. Sometimes we don't even know why we are sad, it just happens, and I hate how some people think that we are doing this because of attention. We don't. There is something to trigger our sadness.
It can be something absolutely stupid, but with our poisoned mind, it takes just little to make us get into that hole of sadness and doubt.
In just snap of a finger our mood changes. Rapidly. We can't affect that and it sucks. We know that.
Once I was sitting in my class and I was feeling great but in a second I got an anxiety attack. My hands started to shake, my heart started to beat fast as fuck. I couldn't breathe normally, my eyes started to fill with tears. I almost broke down in front of my whole class. I was terrified. I didn't know what to do, I didn't want them to know. I hid my face and my shaking hands. I sat silently for the rest of the lesson, but I was on the verge of tears I was freaking out and I wanted to run away. But nobody knows about my mental health issues. Not even my teacher so I couldn't just disappear.
Mental health isn't only about psychical pain but also physical. Sometimes it hurts so much that we are not able to take it anymore. We just want to shut ourselves down. So if I am not in the mood I won't talk to you because I need some time to heal myself. And interaction with people is wearing me down. Especially if I am down.
