I will never let you too close.
I got hurt by so many people. People that I thought were my friends, somebody I could turn to when I needed them. It makes you feel worthless and unappreciated. How could they do it to me? What have I done wrong?
I know that it's not your fault and I am sorry, but I can't take my walls down not until you prove that I can trust you and rely on you. It will take a lot of time and patience and people tend to give up. I know it's my fault, I know and I wish that I could change that, but trust issues don't disappear easily, they make me question everything and I hate it.
If you ever hurt me or lose my trust, I'll never trust you anymore. At that moment you lost me, even if it's because of something absolutely banal. Once you fuck up, we are done. I can't take any more pain, not from someone I thought was by my side no matter what.
So don't take me for granted.
