All I Need [m.y.g//k.n.j]

Fifteen

MONSTA X - HONESTLY

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Yoongi couldnt even blink an eye that night well -its not like he always get to blink an eye. All the bad memories from high school days kept coming making him even harder to breath.

Every memory flooded him and sends him into a worst panic attack. He wanted to go to Jin's placee but knowing his boyfriend would be there, he changed his mind and just stayed home not wanting to be a nuisance and bug Jin with his nonstop anxiety.

So he had stayed home with nobody attending him.

Yoongi had arrived early that morning,the first person in Cypher building.He couldnt focus with making songs and writing lyrics because every word seems to remind him of the old days.

So he distracted himself with solving math equation.

There he sat at the guest living room, scribbling down on an old math book he still keeps from high school. He was glad, the equations really distract him from thinking of the bad past, and it looks like the numbers and alphabets sooths his soul.

To indulge in solving the equations, he didnt notice two people who had walked in.

"Oh? Yoong~",Hoseok chirps. "Good morning."

"Good morning..", he finally looks up from his book and greets the man back.

Namjoon who stood beside Hoseok didnt say a word. Yoongi's eyes flickered only once to Namjoon's way before going back to his math, feeling his chest tightening up at the sight of Namjoon.

Not good.

Hoseok then left to his office, not actually surprised when he saw Yoongi with his beloved book. He already know about Yoongi's weird way of distracting himself from stress. But he still found it cute, and it amuses him.

Namjoon there stares at him,knowing better that if Yoongi is into his math book theres something bothering him in the head. Recalled back the days where the boy would finish the whole chapter because he was worried for his test results.

Does this has to do with Yuna?

"Yoongi."

Said boy froze when his name being called.

He didnt look up.

Namjoon grew impatient somehow, approaching Yoongi. Yoongi's chest tightens even more, hoping Namjoon would leave him alone.

"Yoongi.", he calls again, snatching away Yoongi's only distraction, "Why are you like this hmm? Is this because of Yuna? You met her yesterday, and today youre behaving like this. What did she say to you?", Namjoon asks questions by question and Yoongi starts to shake.

"No..." Yoongi utters, his body now shaking violently. Heaving air in short breaths."Give it back...", reaching his hand to get his math book away from Namjoon.

"Hey..", Namjoon holds his hands tightly, "Calm down..Okay Im sorry..",Namjoon spoke softly to comfort him, "Im sorry, I shouldnt forced it on you.."

Namjoon lifts his hand to kiss on Yoongi's knuckles , he knew that calms Yoongi down when he used to do it years ago, but Yoongi retract his hands back.

He gets up from the couch, body still shaking but he didnt want to have Namjoon so close to him because Namjoon is also one of the reasons he kept remembering his painful past.

"Yoongi!", Namjoon calls after him but be continued on walking away and off to his studio then locking it behind him afterwards.

Namjoon groans in frustration.

This again.  Shutting me down again like he used to do. Damn it, Yoongi.