All I Need [m.y.g//k.n.j]

Twenty Six

CL - MTBD

Its already been a week and Yoongi still avoids him at work. He cant stand it anymore.

Okay ,you guys can say that Namjoon literally is trying to lick his own spit (you know like trying to do something he tells himself he doesnt want to), he'd actually try to talk to Yoongi all the while but still the boy refuses to.

He spends more of his time being frustrated than composing his track songs and writing lyrics but he cant bring himself to do it when all he ever does was sit down, being an emo and frustrated man infront of his PC, and recalling back his past relationship with Yoongi.

The anger builds itself in him, but not feeling it for somone but none other than at himself. He was mad at himself.

Yoongi shouldnt have felt pressured but he can only think he was the cause of it. And the cause of their tense situation. Namjoon can already tell Yoongi is trying to make him tastes his own medicine, like Yoongi would just walk passed him in the hall like he's invisible or like when they would be stuck in a same space, Yoongi would just focus with his own world.

Namjoon cant stand it anymore.

"I cant stand it anymore.", he abruptly stands off of his swivel chair, ruffling his hair whilst walking out his studio room.

He goes to Yoongi's studio but spotted the boy isnt there, he went to the pantry room too but to no avail he wasnt there either. He passes the washroom going to Hoseok's studio thinking he might be there and the clicking sound of the washroom door unlocks reveals Yoongi.

Said boy jumps in surprise then when somebody yanks him back all of a sudden, "Ah!"

"We need to talk.", Namjoon says and now pulling Yoongi and takes the lead to said boy' studio. As they reached there, Namjoon pushed Yoongi in and then locking the door behind him. "No more running, no more avoiding and start talking to me already!"

Namjoon spoke out frustratingly because thats all he is the entire week, he cant take no more of it. It was all bottled up.

He takes a while to calm down while inhaling a few times of deep breathing, "I know I was being a dick to you since we met again. Im sorry for that."

"What do you w- want exactly?", Yoongi stutters.

"Didnt I say it just now? I want to talk."

Yoongi chews on his bottom lip, he didnt really know what to talk about but lets just wait what Namjoon is about to say.

"..hate you.."

"W-what?"

Yoongi was actually too caught up with his mind that's trying to think of a way to escape this, escape from Namjoon, escape from his own studio, escape from Cypher, escape life- that he didnt really hear Namjoon talking.

"I dont hate you."

Yoongi stared at Namjoon seconds more before muttering a confuse, "W-what?"

"Oh god Min Yoongi., "Namhoon groans, "Can you please focus what Im trying to say to you for abit.", Namjoon brings his palms on his face rubbing off the now double frustration he's having.

"I said I dont hate you goddammit!" Namjoon groans again with a loud huff, "When Im trying to be nice now that you decide to let me taste my own medicine huh?"

"Let me say it again, I dont hate you and to be honest I never did. Im just mad. Upset. Angry. Sad at myself because even if I tried to hate you I couldnt!", Namjoon admitted.

He sighs slowly, "So please Yoongi..", Namjoon locks his eyes with Yoongi which the boy just stares back into his, "No more avoiding me..", his face now looking defeated. He was tired, really.

Yoongi just stood there not knowing what to say back but whatever that Namjoon had spew out makes him now feel at ease. Namjoon admits that he doesnt hate him but evenso, that actually adds more to his guilt.

"You should though..", Yoongi says.

"Should what?", confused, Namjoon ask.

"You should hate me so. Because.. I-", Yoongi stops talking, when he bites down his lip hard.

" I agree, I should have hated you but I cant alright? I cant because I-", Namjoon stops at mid way doing the same as Yoongi-as he bites down his bottom lip to stop talking.

"Because...?", Yoongi expectantly asks.

Namjoon sighs yet again, (here it goes), "Because I was so fucking in love with you. So fucking in love that I cant bring myself to hate you more than how much I loved you."

(I cringed)