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Letters to you - WillNe

• TRIGGER WARNING - contains mentions of suicide •

To my dearest Will,

It's been a month. A month since you left us. I cry everyday, why did you do it?
George and Alex haven't uploaded in weeks.
You were the light in everyone's life, now you're gone and so has their sun.
The note you left me, I tore it to pieces. I can't stand the pain in my chest, the stinging feeling whenever I think of you. Which is always.
What was going though your head? Were you like this for a while? Why did I never notice?
I was a terrible girlfriend, I'm so so sorry.
I failed you.
Please come home.
All my love, (Y/n).

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To the love of my life,

3 months, 3 long months since you left us.
I went and visited your parents in Newcastle. They couldn't stop crying.
George is depressed, he doesn't talk to anyone anymore.
He's taking a break from YouTube for a while, the fans don't know why.
Your fans don't know yet, I don't want to tell them. It will destroy them.
I stuck the note you left me back together, it's drenched in tears but your hand writing is still readable.
I'm over the sad stage now, I haven't even crying as much.
I'm mad, mad that you left me.
I went out for five minutes Will. Five minutes and that was all it took for you to do this to yourself.
What were you thinking?
I still love you, I'll never stop.
Please come home.

All my heart, (Y/n).

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To my dear William,

I miss you.
We all do.
It's been 6 months, I still can't believe you're gone.
I told the fans two months ago, everyone is distraught.
I went back to Newcastle, I'm living with my parents again. I couldn't live in that apartment, you left me in that apartment.
I go to your parents house sometimes, I walk Darcey for you.
She misses you.
Alex started posting again, he's not as bright as he was before you left.
Before I left London I visited George. He said he hates you for leaving. We both know he doesn't, he's still hurting, but he's getting worse. I saw the scars on his arm Will.
You need to come back, I'm breaking without you.
Come home. Please.

Forever yours, (Y/n).

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Dear Will,

It's been a year.
A year today.
Everything has gone to shit.
Because of you George is gone too. He left me just like you did.
Alex is a mess, I couldn't leave him alone so I moved in with him.
The funeral was yesterday. I'm broken Will. You need to come back and fix me. I beg you.
We miss you.
Come home.

Love, (Y/n).

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Will,

Today marks exactly two years since you left.
You left your friends, family, your fans. You left me two years ago Will.
I forgive you though. You must have been going through hell and I'm sorry you thought you couldn't talk to me about it.
Alex and I have been there for each other. We miss you more and more everyday.
I miss your smile, how your eyes would wrinkle and your teeth would show. I miss your amazing laugh, Will it's been two years since I heard your laugh. I would kill to hear it again.
I don't want to live without you.
I hope you and George have found each other up there. I hope you're not alone.
I'm putting myself back together slowly. But there will forever be a hole in my heart.
I hope you're happy up there William.
I love you, forever and always.

With love, (Y/n).

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My dear Will,

Three years today, three years without you.
I'm okay now. I think.
Alex and I started dating 6 months ago. He looks after me. He wants you to know he will protect me.
Darcey passed away, I'm so sorry Will. Your parents called me crying the other day.
I wish you would come back but I know you won't.
I will be with you soon.
I love you Will.

Love, (Y/n).

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William,

Five years and I'm still writing these letters. It's a good way to cope I guess.
Alex proposed two years ago, we got married last Autum. It was beautiful. I'm sorry for not telling you sooner.
I always wondered if we would get married, if we would start a family.
You would have been a great father, Will.
Also, please say hello to your mother for me. I never did get to say goodbye.
I hope you're doing well up there, look after George for us.
We love you Will. Forever and always.

Love, (Y/n).

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William,

This will be my last letter.
I'm sorry but it's getting to hard to write now.
7 years without you. It's been torture.
We visit your grave all the time, placing flowers on your birthday and Christmas.
We have a son Will. We named him after you and George.
Andrew Lenney Elmslie.
He turned 4 yesterday. We tell him stories about you and George.
I still wear the pendant that you bought me for our one year. It hangs next to my heart.
I love you Will, I'll never stop.

Yours, (Y/n).

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To my dearest (Y/n),

I'm sorry for leaving you.
I never meant to hurt you like this, but I'm hurting. Everyday is a struggle. I can't do it anymore.
Please stay strong for me. Look after yourself. Remember me please.
I'm so in love with you.

Yours forever, Will.

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Major ooof.
Im sorry for this, I cried writing it

Please forgive me.

- Emeryx