Imagines // Commentary Cancer :)

I Lost Her - Youtuber of your choice.

The worst feeling is the one that comes months after a breakup.

The one where your ex just slips into your mind and you remember every little detail of them.

My 3am thoughts are always about (Y/n).

It's not that I just miss the cute messages and dates. It's the bond we had together.

We knew everything about each other.

We sat outside at night, during winter, cuddled up under the stars and would ask each other deep questions.

We'd listen to each other's favourite music and give our honesty thoughts about it.

We'd watch scary movies and make out during the gory parts so she wouldn't be scared.

She knew what it was like to be going through the shit I was going through.

We were both so beautifully messed up, but we helped each other.

I would travel all the way up to Manchester, by train, just to see her for the weekend.

I went with her and held her hand when she got her first tattoo.

I was with her when she got her cat.

We would stay up until ridiculous hours texting each other nonsense just to keep our minds off the crazy shit in our heads.

We'd facetime when we were drunk just to tell each other we were thinking of them.

We never said i love you, because it's meaningless these days. Instead, we said we adored each other.

I'd call her lame and she'd call me a loser.

I'd always tell her she looked perfect, no matter how she looked.

I wanted to be with her forever.
we were so close to making it official to my fans. But I got jealous and said some immature shit that I could never take back.

I loved her and I always thought about her.

I miss the way she'd randomly look at me when she thought I wasn't looking.

Or the way she'd give me back rubs whenever I was working too hard.

She'd sit in my lap and watch me play video games or edit a video all night long.

(Y/n) was everything to me. I was lost without her for so long. But I threw myself into work, I never had a chance to think about her.

But late at night, when everything was peaceful, she'd slip back into my mind. Haunting me with the memories we'd made.

No one could ever replace her.

So now, laying in my bed, I let tears roll down my cheeks and let my mind run wild.

And whenever my mates ask if i'm okay, I shrug and tell them i'm fine. Because the reality is, I will never be okay again.

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This is really short.

But it's currently 3am and this popped into my mind.

Originally, this was a text I sent to my friend about my ex girlfriend. I made minor adjustments but it's still accurate nonetheless.

I don't know which of the lads I wanted this to be about, so you can chose your favourite.

Goodnight :)

- Emeryx