Persona

CHAPTER XXI: Forever 21

"Just where is her office?!" I was super frustrated.

Im here at an intersection not knowing what way should I go since this Google Map is not very much of a help.

Almost taking the wrong way, I saw someone holding a paper bag with the brand name I was looking for right before I cross the wrong road.

"Excuse me? But where can I find that store?" I politely asked the girl

"Just go straight and you'll see it" She answered and I bowed to her as gratitude and went on my way

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"You really took your time going here" HaeNa stated while looking at her laptop

"It's not my fault that the navigator isn't working well" I flopped on the sofa "it was very exhausting to go and find this place. If it wasn't for the girl I met, I'd still not be here"

"My clothing line is pretty much popular. Ever heard of it? Forever 21?" She bragged sarcastically making me roll my eyes at her as a response

"So what's bothering you so much that made you come here?" She sitted in front of me with her laptop

"It's about yesterday..." I started "you didn't come back home yesterday so I didn't had the chance to tell it to you"

"There was an emergency here and I needed to attend it." She closed her laptop and put her attention to me "so what about yesterday?"

"Jungkook.... He brought me to  Bukhansan National Park...."

"WHAT???!!!" She put her hand over her mouth to somewhat muffle her shrieks "WHY?!"

"He said he always wanted to go there..." I sighed remembering the events yesterday "if only I knew we were heading there I wouldn't had come with him"

"But, you were so happy when you left the house. Your texts even made me feel the happiness"

"I know... But, I wasn't really happy yesterday."

"What did you do? What happened?" She is now sitting beside me

"Nothing worse, just that I remembered everything again, he gave me the snowflake bread and somehow I felt like leaving him there" I hugged my knees

"He didn't know anything so don't blame him for anything... He didn't even know that I was suffering the entire time..."

"You didn't tell him? So you practically endured it?!" Her voice is implying that she is pissed because she is worried

I just nodded

"He should've asked you if you were ok and even if you said yes he could've guessed that you really weren't"

"jungkook was happy yesterday and maybe that made him to oblivious to know that I wasn't"

"You know EunByeol, this is exactly your problem. Why do you always sacrifice your own happiness for others? What about you? Who will make you happy? Who will make sacrifices for you?" I can see frustration in her tone and eyes

"Why can't you love yourself? You don't even pamper yourself nor treat yourself what you deserve. You always put other people before you and that makes you the one being crushed down."

"But, I don't want people to feel pain. Nobody deserves to feel that. I don't want anybody to suffer because they don't have anyone... I don't want them to be in darkness. I don't want anybody to be alone. I don't want people to have sadness" My voice is starting to crack

"Because I know HaeNa... I know how bad that feels. Having no one, living in sadness, being in the dark and suffering. i know how that feels like and I don't want anybody to experience it. It's too much to bear... It's not easy to get out from there..."

"EunByeol stop cryi-"

"I can be happy seeing other people happy. I can be happy just by being the someone I always wished to have... I know I can be happy just by that" I put up a smile, a painful one.

"But who will tell you the things you want to hear? Who will make you feel the things you've been dying to feel? Who will be the person you always wanted to have?"

I really don't know if I can have a person like that. Since mom and dad left, I've been waiting for such person to enter my life but, life is always on odds with me.

Maybe a little more patience and waiting is all I need..

"That person will come... I believe that that person will come"

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There will be more to come

-Luna❣