Persona

CHAPTER XXII: 22 Derp faces

"But who will tell you the things you want to hear? Who will make you feel the things you've been dying to feel? Who will be the person you always wanted to have?"

HaeNa's words from yesterday keeps on replaying in my mind.
It made me think if I can really feel true happiness again...
The kind of happiness so genuine

It made me think if I could ever meet such a person.

Who can be the one that will always be there when I'm the one needing someone?

The elevator door opened and I went out

Opening the door of his room and what welcomed me was not what I expected

"Oh hi there cutie!!!" I carried it "what's your name?"

How did this come here?

"TANNIE!!" Jimin called out and the dog on my shoulders came barfing

"Jimin?" I went inside of the room completely, closing the door behind me

"Uhm I'll be getting him from you" He quickly got the dog from my arms making me miss her warmth

"I didn't know you had a dog Jimin" I cooed at the cuteness of the dog "what's her name?"

"First of all YEONTAN is a boy" He cleared "and second I'm TAEHYUNG not JIMIN"

"Oh so it's yeo- wait WHAT?!"

My brain gears lagged for a minute because of yeontan. He's too cute...like it's owner

Because of that, I didn't know I met another personality and he is the 6th one.
Jimin was doing well that no one took over him for weeks now....

What happened?

"Jimin experienced stress for days now and I thought giving him a break is the best" He sat Yeontan down "let me tell you something that
Jimin can never tell you"

I went closer to him, anticipating his story

"Jimin is doing his utmost best EunByeol...I never saw him so motivated and determined until now..."  He said happily with a glint of sadness and symphaty.

"Please bear with him with anyway possible... I believe in Jimin and in you.. I believe he will be better..that you will make him better..." He added being desperate

"You need to be sensitive about him EunByeol...and you always need to be there for him no matter what. Even if it doesn't benefit you in any way... I just want Jimin to be ok..."

Again? Me sacrificing again?...
But I'm tired... I'm tired of crying myself to sleep...

I want to be happy, I want to feel happiness, I want to be the one being taken care of....

Can't I be that one this time? Do I not deserve to be that one?....

What do I even deserve?

"I don't kno-" I stated off but he suddenly hugged me

"I know it was a tough offer but, you're his doctor right? Your goal is to make him better isn't?"

He's right.. What am I even thinking?

Rejecting his favor? Rejecting to treat her patient? That's not what a psychiatrist will do....

You're a psychiatrist EunByeol... Not the patient that needs attention and love...

"So promise?" He smiled at me with hope and sincerity

I know he's worth it, he is always worth it
"I promise"

And with that he suddenly jumped around showing me almost 22 different derp faces

"It will be worth it.. I know it will be" I smiled to myself.

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Depressed EunByeol is coming through slowly.

-Luna❣