Persona

CHAPTER XXXVI: She could've been 36 years old

JIMIN POV:

Here I am back in the restroom after she left me alone

The running water keeps me in comfort
The steam keeps me away from being numb
And my reflection seems to make me remember who I really am

Looking at myself, the scars all over my skin were visible

From light cuts to deep scars.

Why did I do these? Why did I torture myself?

I'm ugly. I'm hideous. I'm a murderer.  I'm a monster

"Treat yourself better Jimin..."

"Love yourself..."

"Accept them, they're a part of you.."

Chuckling painfully as EunByeol's words keeps on running in my mind

How can I possibly do that?
After I took a life..
After I messed up..
After what I became now..

I held on to the sink harder. And felt that he's coming

"Don't dare take over me"

"Hah acting like you're strong now ain't you Jimin?"

"Stop plea-"

"Do you remember YeJin?"

The image of the girl came flashing through my eyes

The girl Jungkook loved..

And the girl I killed

"I knew you always had the desire for her so, I satisfied it. You should be greatful to me Jimin. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't taste how good she felt when you're inside her. Just remember the pleasure, the moans and the ecstasy"

"I TOLD YOU TO STOP!"

Looking back at my reflection only seeing my face..

It's me... It's a part of me...

No matter how hard I try to run away from it..

I can't

"I never had the desire to kill, to sexually feed myself... I never had those.."

"Oh really? Well, you were already a murderer before you actually killed YeJin. You killed your parents remember?"

I can't lose control
My head is aching too much

"And you know that the blames weren't really true. You know you were really not the reason why they died..." EunByeol's voice softly whispered

"That's where you're wrong." I smirked at my reflection "I really wasn't the reason they died because I wasn't near them when they crashed.. I may be the reason why they drove off but, I didn't cause the accident."

"Where are all of this crap coming from Park Jimin?"