Persona

CHAPTER XXVIII: 28th time

"HE WHAT?!" HaeNa literally have wide eyes right now

"He confessed" I sighed "how many times do I have to repeat myself?"

"AND YOU WHAT?!"

"I dumped him" I rolled my eyes at her. Its like the 28th time we had this conversation this night

"BUT WHY?! YOU LIKE HIM!" She began to freaking shake the living shit out of me "GIVE ME A PERFECT REASON!"

"BECAUSE!" I grabbed her hands to make her stop "I needed to"

She calmed down. Thank God.
And she prompted her arms indicating she was willing to listen to me

"After my talk with Jimin last Christmas...I suddenly realized that I can feel happiness without pretending that I'm ok all the time..." I leaned against the bed frame

"He made me realize that there is a person that can see through me...he made me see that there is a person I can show how I really feel...someone I can lean on to whenever I had enough...."

"It's like you're talking about a specific person" HaeNa smirked

Am I? Do I have a specific person in mind?

"And say, you wanted to be with that kind of person?" She added

"Of course...I would give anything to be with that person" I chuckled

"Is that why you dumped him? Because he isn't that person? Or is it because you like someone else?" Her smirk grew wider and I wanted to wipe it off her face

But, she did in fact made a point.
Why did I dump JungKook?
Is it really just because I wanted to do something I deserve or is there something else?

"Don't talk nonsense HaeNa!" I shook my head to erase the building thoughts of me liking my patient "I dumped him because I wanted something that I deserve and that is happiness"

"You're not making any sense here EunByeol. You were genuinely happy with him." She leaned closer to me "or is it because you felt something you needed that someone else gave you?"

"And what could that 'Something' be?"

"Comfort and security"

And that hit me.
As much as I wanted to deny it...
She was pretty right...
It made me realize but, that can't be right....

"Just admit it EunByeol" She leaned beside me "I know how bright you became after that Christmas."

This can't be...
I can't possibly like...

My very first patient...

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"No that is really impossible" I kept telling myself as I walked towards his room "that is so absurd"

I opened his door only to let me see him leaning against the window with sunlight lighting his dark brown hair and his surprisingly enchanting eyes

Is it just me or did he became more attractive today?

"OMG EUNBYEOL WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOING?" I quickly closed the door as I realized I was checking him out

I kept on hitting my head in attempt to wake my suddenly attracted self

"Ms. Lee?" An old lady's voice called out to me and I was surprised to see the source of the voice

"NaNa?"

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Yaaassss
Realization is starting to kick in

-Luna❣